A meaningful paragraph

Yesterday, had a little quarrel and debate with one of my friends in school about the deliverance thing. He keeps on insisting that he was correct, and I was wrong, and I just kept arguing with him. Yong Jing told me to stop, because it's no use quarreling with him. Although I've stopped, I still feel very unhappy about it.

Today after school, I was reading a small book, Our Daily Bread™, and I had skipped a few days because I was busy. Today I managed to find the time, and so I'm reading the days that I've missed.

I was reading a story on July 27, which was Friday, and I found the verse was meaningful.

2 Timothy 2:23-26 (I skipped a 2:22, because I think it's abit irrelevant to what I'll be talking about)

And the explanation in the book goes like this.(I'll summarise)

Caring for people can be risky. Paul described what it takes to help those who, in perilous times have wandered from the path of truth. ... he reminds us that when it comes to caring for the minds and hearts of others, we can't rely on human ingenuity and muscle. What we really need is the wisdom of God. Without being quarrelsome or arrogant, the Lord's servant must use gentleness and patience.

Dear Father, I realised my mistakes yesterday. I shouldn't have lost my temper and start debating with my friend, I know this is wrong. I know I should have been more patience and explain to him what is it all about. O Lord, I pray that You will really help me to stand strong, and help me to be more patient with the lost out there. I thank You and I praise You, in Jesus name I lift this prayer to You, Amen.

Deliverance Service

I don't really know how to say about the deliverance service, but I've got 3 words to describe.

It's totally AWESOME.

Why? Let me fill you in.

I felt the touch of God, I felt God cleansed me in everything.

First, it's generation curses, idolatry, and occult activities. Of course I should go down and get myself cleansed by the Lord, since I was somehow forced to do all these in the past by my parents. I really see people manifest, but I really wanna thank God, or I don't really know. I just hope that it's because that the spirit doesn't really have much impact on me, that's why the first time I just cried and coughed quite hard, and my hands felt numb...

Second, is the unclean actions, like temper problems, which I had, I wanted to go down, but at first I don't really know what's pastor Mike Connell said, because I was praying for Gary and Kenneth. Then when both of them are done, I asked Vic what are they praying now, and she told me it's the unclean actions. I told Shamus my ears for no reason felt very hot, he told me to sit down. I started praying. He then prayed for me also. Suddenly I just fall and sat on the ground, and I just cried again. Shamus was praying for me again and helping me to clean. Meanwhile, my face, mouth, arms, all just felt so numb, I don't know why...

Third, was spirit of fear, rejection, thoughts of committing suicide...all, I have it. I prayed again, Alan was beside me again. This time, I don't know why, this time was the most serious. I knelt down on the floor, I knocked my head onto the handle of the chair a few times. Then Yong Jing came up and pray for me, then it came again, I felt God cleaning me again. Gary also prayed for me, Alan, and I think Wei Xiong also... This time, vomitted a little, cried and coughed for the longest. Maybe it's because I had the mindset of thinking of dying again previously(refer to my 25th July update.), that's why it had so much impact on me. After everything, we ended it with a praise song. Some of them were still praying. All of us felt tired...and my throat was dry...stupid devil made me cough until my throat becomes so dry...

Because all of us had not eaten, all of us decided to go to Clementi to eat. At first we wanted to go to a coffeshop to have our meal, but it was closed! Never mind, we went to McDonalds™ to eat. As it was getting quite late, all of us had to leave. At first I thought there's a direct bus to go back from Clementi, but I was wrong. May at first said her house's bus-stop there's 963, but on second thoughts, if I were to follow her, by the time I reached there, there would be no more buses, so, I went to the interchange, and found no buses to go home. No choice, I had to take MRT instead. I reached home at about 12:40, wow, that was so far the latest time I got home! Excluding countdown days. I went back and had to finish one big bowl of mee siam... I'm full and tired right now, later will pray and thank God for his deliverance and pray for the rest too...

Happy and shocked

Wow, yesterday's cgm was fun!

We disclosed each other's angels and had food too! Too bad some were not here.

Yesterday, I took the wrong bus to Jarrett's house...I thought I was dead, but Kenneth told me the bus can reach too, I was like relieved...whew! When I reached It's was like very few people, because some can't come I think, like Shamus, JJ, Wei Xiong, May, Quang Yi also. Hmm, seems quiet, but never mind, we'll still have fun.

The cgm had to start late, but had to end early, because Qi Hui had to leave for Malaysia. Halfway through when we were worshipping, Elaine and Shifu reached. After worshipping, Elaine said some announcements, then, it's time to disclose the angels!

All of us had a round to guess who's our angel, most of them said they don't know, but some guessed correctly. When it was my turn, both my angel and mortal were not here...sad.

Indeed I guessed correctly, it was JJ. Haha. Elaine then announced the best angel for the game, but she thinks that there's 4 angels to be awarded: Shifu, Victoria, Jason Ng and Gary! At first I thought this was it. But Elaine took out an envelope and said, she thinks that most of all, she thinks that there's another angel who's better, she said the angel told her although that person doesn't have much money, that person still saves up the money to buy a better gift for the angel. At first I was still thinking who was it, but when Elaine announced that angel was on her left, I was shocked. Because I was sitting on her left! My God! I was so shocked at the prize...The memorable $20 for celebrating Singapore and Brunei currency...here's the pic.




Nice isn't it. Thank you Elaine!

Then Xiu Wen announced that there's a gift for Elaine. But there's a funny part, they wanted to buy a shoe, which I think Elaine wanted it, but it was out of stock! So in the end, they had to buy a card instead. Elaine is the angel of all angels. Haha. :)

Today go ask for gift from Wen Xiong...haha.

High temptation.......

Today is the last day of my fasting period. I'm not supposed to eat anything, but during recess time, I faced very high temptations.

People eating their lunch in the class.

There were rice, nasi lemak, noodles... Man, I almost can't control and went down. Seems like there's a feeling in me to tell me to control, to endure.

It's the Holy Spirit if I'm not wrong. I prayed to God yesterday night and asked him to help me to endure the hunger and to stand strong in my faith. It happened! Maybe a testimony, or maybe not, I don't know...

After that, people came up from canteen bringing up snacks. Man, that was my favourite crackers...arrghh...

Never mind, after all, I endured everything until now, haha. I'm going to play DotA later with Chuen Wee and the rest.

Then go back and eat dinner then go cgm...haha... :P

Unlucky day for me today

Today, I'm gonna talk about 2 unlucky things that happened to me today.


1. I woke up late. 6:50am then I woke up, I was supposed to wake up at 6:10am!


2. I bought food from my school canteen, and I tried to bring it up to class, but was caught by a teacher and was brought to DM.


Ok, the first incident, I quickly wash my face, change and just do everything, including eating my breakfast, within 10 minutes. I then hasten my steps and walked towards the LRT station. When I alighted at Jelapang, I thought I was going to be late. Who knows, I saw Chen Peng!! I don't know why, I just saw many people were late also, and in the end, none of us were punished. Haha. Really gotta thank God for this, believing in God, he'll make things out for you! It's true!!

Second incident, actually, I bought drink for my friend. At first, I had this feeling I should walk out to the ground, where it leads to the other stairs and back to my class. I just didn't want to walk there, instead, I went to walk towards the stairs where it leads from the teachers' room. Man, that was where I was caught by the teacher. My food were all confiscated by the DM. But luckily, I was able to retrieve it back after school. Whew!

Today was the second day of my fasting. I had a feeling that I should go for a total fast today, so I went for it. Until now, I had not had a single drop of water and any food since 7:30! Elaine asked me what am I fasting for, I told her I was fasting for this Saturday's deliverance service and my studies. Haha. Until now, I'm hungry, but, I shall not succumb to my body's shouting to me. It's because of all these shoutings that's why I can't even hear what is God talking to me. No wonder I felt weird last 2 weeks...

Later, I'm going to meet Qi Hui for studying, we'll be doing science(phy/chem) again. Although I hate science, I still gotta do it. Who asked me to fail science in my 'O' levels. Today JJ and Wei Xiong not coming, I think they had to do their D&T project.

Right now, just surf the net for awhile, then I'll go down and meet Qi Hui.

I'm feeling weak and hungry right now, but I'll not succumb to it!!

Fasting and Oral Examinations

The title says it all. I'm going to talk about my fasting and my oral examinations today.

Yesterday, I asked Elaine should I start fasting, she told me I could try to start. Indeed, I started today, I never ate a single thing since 7am. Halfway, I asked Elaine can I drink water, she say can drink, because this is the first time I'm fasting, so don't go for the total fast first. Right now, I just feel so hungry... My friends see to make fun of me, and even scolded vulgarities for me fasting. The reason is they wanted me to go down to the canteen to buy food for them. I said I'm fasting today, and they scolded me. Right now, I can't stand it anymore. I gotta say this out. Why are you people always using me? Using me to buy food for you? Why can't you just stand in the queue and buy yourself? Why are you people so lazy? I can't stand it anymore! (calm down...)

Today after school, we had the English Prelims Oral Examinations. Man, I was so nervous, even though it was only prelims. While I was waiting sitting down on the floor, I prayed silently to God, pray that he would help me to speak well. Haha.

I just suddenly have these thoughts in my mind, I don't know why, maybe you people who read this can tell me.

1. I just feel that I'm alone...I don't know why, I feel this way in school, and sad to say, I also had this feeling when I'm with the rest of the cell group members...

2. I just feel so useless. I feel that I'm a good-for-nothing in this world. I just keep asking people questions. In school, in church... I don't know why... I may be better off dead...

I know I shouldn't have all these negative thoughts, but I just don't know why these thoughts keep appearing in my mind for these few days, probably for the last week until now.

Better focus on my studies...

I'm getting tired of the first sentence...

Alright, guys, I'm back again...

Yes yes, I know I know, you all should know that you have seen that sentence umpteen times, but, I really can't do anything...My father locked the com, what can I do?

But, I just really wanna thank God again, that I'm able to use the computer again.

Ok, I hate to do this, but still, gotta summarise again... -_-!!!

Last Sat, Pastor Kong came back and preached the Sermon on the Mount. Halfway through, something shocked me. Pastor Kong played the guitar! I didn't know he could play so well! Haha, I also learnt alot about Spiritual Giving, Praying and Christian Fasting. Really gain and learnt alot on that service. After service was also very very sian, because no one fellowshipping, but luckily went to watch Harry Potter And The Order Of The Phoenix with my mum at Cathay. Nice movie though, can't wait for the half-blooded prince one.

I also learnt alot about Holy Spirit during bible study with Elaine. I learnt about what is the gifts from God other than the Holy Spirit, and the fruits of it. Although it's a little too noisy, because the worship leaders are inside practising.

Yesterday, was our fellowship cgm! Yeah! We went to Sentosa, and the leaders organised an Amazing Race game. Man, it was fun. Altogether there were 4 cg. I was with Ng, Chan, ChunPing, and sherrill's friends. Serene was the facilitator for our group. Man, at first when we reached the bottom, I thought we won, but Shamus told us there were another group earlier than us, Elaine came and told us before them there was another group even faster than them...Man, looks like we were the fourth. Indeed, when the results were out, we were the fourth place, Shamus, although last, but first. $50 cash....haha, never mind, try harder next time. :) Then the whole lot of us celebrated Qi Hui's birthday and the whole lot of us went to Harbourfront centre and had our lunch there. Upon finishing, Shamus asked who wants to go play DotA. In the end, Shamus, yong Jing, Jarrett, Chong and I went to play. Man, Shamus and Yong Jing were real pro...and Chong too, I'm the noobest of all. After 3 rounds, we played a game called pudge wars. Haha this game was the funniest game. I remembered once Chong tried to pull Jarrett back to our side, but I thought his hook never reached Jarrett, so I threw mine. Who knows, Jarrett was hooked by Chong, and mine reached him, and in the end, Jarrett was torn apart. Head Shot! All of us were laughing our lungs out. We then went home. All of us were so tired. After all, who's not tired after running whole day. Haha.

Hope I can really post again...if my com is not locked up again.

Here are some of the pics I took.

Foolish Persecution.

Just faced a stupid, foolish persecution....

After being a christian, after learning so many God's words...my stupid temper still cannot change...

I just said something about my brother never do something he was supposed to do, and he talked bad to me in a very rude way. Then on the void deck my mum was like pointing everythign towards me...I accidentally talked back to her in a rude way...

She just say she's not siding anyone...ok, I'll accept that, but when she said that she got hit my brother when he did something wrong...ya, she did, once out of 5 times...You called that fair?

I was about to say that to my mum, then I just had this feeling stopping me, stopped me from speaking anything...it's the Holy Spirit I think.

Dear heavenly Father, I would like to confess this sin of mine and repent before You, no one else I'll repent but You O Lord. I pray that You will help me to leave this sin, this temper problem, use the Holy Spirit to help me to remove this sin totally from my life forever. Help me to become a better person from this moment on, help me to become a changed person, a person without temper problem. I thank You and I praise You, in Jesus Mighty Name I pray, Amen.

(I feel much better after praying this. If anyone of you out there has temper problems back to you again, trying praying this, it'll will help!)

What if u mix this two together?

I believe all of you out there knows that Harry Potter carrys a wand around with him right? And he only has one rite...

And I believe all of you still remember the slogan for the 'double A quality paper' right? If you've forgotte, let's do a recap... "Double A, Double Quality Paper." This is the slogan.

Ok, imagine, Ministry Of Magic allows everybody to carry two wands with them(in case the first one doesn't work or breaks or whatever reason there is), and imagine Ministry Of Magic orders everyone to use Double A quality paper, and no more weird paper... And the ministry wants someone to advertise, they may look for Harry Potter, and the slogan for promoting this 2 campaigns together(carrying 2 wands with you and using double A paper)...










Read the slogan aloud.















'Double the wand, double the fun, double A quality paper'

HAHAHAHahahahaa...-_-!!!

Does this sounds funny? Well some of you may think so, some may think it's lame, give me your comment at the shoutbox, whether is it lame or funny...

ps:I just thought of this phrase when I was having free lesson...

Healing service

Had a healing service on Saturday, which was yesterday. Fun, and nice. Really learnt and gained alot from this service, an eye-opener for me also, since I never went for the Benny Hinn service. Guest was Dr. Richard Roberts from Oral Roberts University, a gifted evangelist.

At first was persuading Cerenna to come, since it was a healing service. Well, no choice, God planned it all. I knew it, just like the past, I invited her on sunday, but she says she wants to go for donno what training. I'm not trying to condemn her here, but I just can't find the reason why people just wants to find excuses to push God's appointment with them. Well, maybe, her heart's not opened up yet. It will go by slowly, but I believe by faith, all these will come to past. She will come to know God more at the end, by faith.

Had bible study with Elaine after service, even though she hasn't recovered from her sore throat. Really thank God she's still able to give me bible study, and also thank Elaine for giving even though her condition. And I just donno why, I just couldn't step out by faith to end the study with a prayer...hmmm...will try...

Just finishing watching the cg ministries powerpoint. Haha, funny though...especially the friendliest part, Kenneth, and Gary collecting cg fund. Haha. Now, really gotta buck up in my studies, so that I have the ability to advise people to study. Can you imagine me having bad grades still want to advise people to study? I mean, I didn't set a good example...so really gotta buck up.

Today fellowshipping on the train was so fun, had jokes, riddles, most funny one is the 'ambition is fan' story by Wei Xiong, and the finger...by Kenneth, only Wei Xiong, Shifu, Kenneth and me knows only. Haha.

Signing off...penguin...

I'm back again

Ok Guys, I'm back again...I think God has once again, answered my prayers...Yeah!

Ok, still gotta do this(did this once and now I have to do this again), summarise what happened last few days...

Fri, 06/07/07, I went for the weekly cgm. Everything was normal, but to my surprise, Guan Yi was there! Praise the Lord! Had fun, and also, we felt God's presence, and I learned alot too! I also shared alot with Chong and Ng.

Sat, 07/07/07, nice date though... It was the live earth campaign, everyone was supposed to wear green, well, my plan almost succeed, some never wear, but, never mind. Haha. I learnt alot from the word of God, on the Sermon on the Mount, especially the anger part... Celebrated Rita's birthday, I also had lots of fun fellowshipping with the rest of the members. Xiu Wen said Rita had smsed her funny funny stuffs...haha. Guan Yi shocked us...always...

Bible study was great in the afternoon, and thank you Elaine, for treating me the sunrise drink at coffee bean! :) (treat u back nxt time)

I also received a gift from my angel, a good one. Might not be to you, but it is for me... An Adidas water bottle, which I had thought of buying one in the past, inside also contains sweets! Mentos, Maoam, mentos, fruit plus, and a note... I want to vote my angel 10 votes!!! Looking at the gift, so touched, so blessed, yet at the same time, feel so embarassed on my gift for my mortal...it's always those 'chiapalan' type one...sian...

Sun, 08/07/07, Today, was the 1st time, I went for the Sunday service(hope it won't be the last). 10 ppl showed up, including me. Some came because they didn't showed up on Saturday - May, Jarret and Agnes. The rest are: the 3 cgl, Shamus, Ah Li and Chun Ping. I learnt even more! Continuing from Saturday's sermon. Thank God I'm able to come for that service! Then, few of us went to Tampines to eat, 'cause Elaine says she want to buy something for her nephew(she say her sister call her buy one). We ate at Long John Silvers, but have to leave early, cos May have a tuition in the afternoon. I need to alight at City Hall, so as to go to Dhoby Ghaut, so have to part with the rest...

I met my mum at Cathay, because I'm going to watch movie. Transformers. We watched the digital one, as recommended by Chong. Before we go in, the interval time was so long, I just dozed off at the seat there, very tired. Because the previous night I slept at 3:30 and I woke up at 7:10. The movie was so style, so nice, feel like watching it again. Those who haven't watch it, better go watch...

A pic I took at Cathay.



Recognise it?

Man, my friendster, there's this person, sent me this weird weird link, I need help...

Overslept again...hydrate salt...

Man, I ate too much yesterday night, a bowl of fried bee hoon and a bowl of walnut paste. Man, I can't sleep until 1 plus! Resulted today I woke up late again. But, thank God, I woke up at 6:30, not 6:50. Haha, so I'm still able to catch the second bus and reach school on time. Hallelujah!

Today's last lesson was chemistry. We were supposed to do some chemical reaction stuffs and we were supposed to test out their anions and cations. I accidently came in contact with some hydrate salt near my elbow. At first I thought "Aiya, salt only ma, just wash can liao." Who knows, awhile later, I felt itchy, then when i look at the spot where I touched the salt, yikes! A small wound was there. Then I just keep on washing and washing.

Man, so suay today! Haha. Well, but at least God did turn some things around. He made me wake up earlier, even though I'm late(the earlier part of the late timing), and the salt thing, at least now it's better and it's not itchy anymore. Hallelujah!

Ok, this friday's cgm, really gotta share 2 testimonies, healing and blessing. Haha. I'll blog again! Penguin signing off!

God, I hunger for You more...

Just read Chong's blog, and reminded me of JJ's livejournal this morning. Both of them speaks about them spiritually empty, even though after pm, cgm, and service.

Upon reading these, I just suddenly felt an emptiness in my heart. I don't know why at first, but after thinking for awhile. I knew it. I lack of something that is so important in my life that I never even realised that it was empty in the first place.

God's Love, it was gone, for this week, I don't really felt much of it. None of us know why, it just felt so empty, so empty, making me so weak spiritually...

Oh God, I hunger more for You! For Your love, Your grace, Your comfort, Your everything...

Oh God, where have You been? Why I can't feel much of Your presence for the last few days?

Oh God, touch me with Your mighty hands, touch me with Your grace and love divine. Let me worship You more O Lord. Touch all of the people out there who has felt empty and hunger and desire for more of Your love O Lord. Let us get recharged spiritually by Your word and Your love and Your presence O Lord, in Jesus name I pray, Amen.

Blur King Award Of The Day Goes To...

Man, if there's really such an award, I think I'm qualified enough to receive this award. Why? Because, I am supposed to bring my bible study book and my mortal's present out. But on my way when I and bringing my brother to my mother, I just realised I never bring both of them. Then after leaving my brother with my mum, I had to go back to take those things. Man, this just wasted me at least half an hour. I get back, took my things, when I took bus to Bugis MRT station, on the way, I just realised, I did not bring the present out.
-_-!!!

Man, aren't I blur...

The service was preached by Doctor Peter Wagner, a renowned author of over 60 books. He started this talk with a joke. Funny :D. Was quite blessed by this whole service. Then, I had my first bible study! Yeah! Finally, I can grow more in Christ. Was also blessed by the lessons, although the environment was noisy, haha. Learn quite a lot from the book.

JJ, didn't went for service, he's still staying at home resting his injuries. Man, scratched both his knees, had a swollen waist... Dude, will be praying for you!

Looking forward for the next cgm, next service, bringing my friend to enjoy the service and know God more, next bible study, next of whatever that is related with God. Man, I just can't get enough of God!!! Amen! :D

Really looking forward to everything!

PS: Yesterday when I was on my way home, I just realised that I also haven't return Gary the $2, Man aren't I super blur sotong!!!