Compresssing all...

Hmm, going to blog all the way from last week's cgm to Sunday's usher outing.

Hmm, Thursday's cgm was great. Before it had a small pm with Xiu Wen, Gary, Wei Siong and Jarrett. God has some encouragement words to speak to us. So Xiu Wen became the intercessor, and I really do felt encouraged after that. I'm going to do great things for God!! The word was great too. It's about finding a true friend. It's really a great message. Haha. After the cgm, we went to Gek Poh to have our dinner and to fellowship. After that all went home. Haha.

Friday, actually nothing much...haha. Went to Ben's house to practice for the performance on Serene's birthday, then fellowship awhile before I went back home.

Saturday, early in the morning, we have the 12 disciples bs! It's great! It's really interesting. The sad thing is...yes...I doze off in the beginning again...But at least I managed to get some important parts in the beginning...haha..Then went to East Coast Park to celebrate Wen Shun's birthday. Haha. Had lots of fun there. After that we all went to the chalet to look for Serene. The food was simply yummy!! Especially the mushroom!! Shella and I agreed on this! Lol. Anyway, we really had fun there. Ben and I even performed for Serene. Omg...so embarrassed...Because in the first place, we thought the whole crowd will be watching us perform, but it's only the 3 cgs...haha. After we finished performing, I forgot who told us that even the strangers from other units clap hands...lol...After that cabbed home with Pei Fen, Wei Qiang and Ben. Haha.

Sunday!! It's my first time serving officially!!(Not including training times) And really thank God, really really made a lot of new friends in usher, and trust me, there's more to come. Lol. Wore long sleeved shirt...and I was supposed to serve external traffic!! AHHH... If I hadn't wear that shirt, serving would be much more better...lol. Anyway, initially was thinking of joining cg for fellowship for awhile before I go back to the reception counter at church at 445pm, but they went to JP, and my ez-link card seriously got no money left, so I've got no choice, I had to leave...sigh...went with Ben and Joshua up to 4th floor to fellowship. Kathryn then came and return me the bible I'd lend her in the morning. Then the ushers all just fellowshipped around till 445pm. Haha. Took the chartered bus to Paya Lebar, at a condo's function room. Had games and food and fellowshipped there. Of course, photos!!...erm...I don't know where are all the photos though...haha... Anyway, went off last with Ng and the rest, Jasmine, Bernard, Boon Siong, Ivory(I hope I never spell wrongly...lol) and Hui Ling. Went to SingPost to fellowship. We asked each other a lot of thinking IQ questions...heehee. Be prepared to be asked by me...lol. Well, gotta start school soon, after having extra 4 days holidays due to exams...haha. *yawn* sleep...lol.

God's Grace!!

Arrgh, actually I planned to blog this on 24th...heehee, someone should know what I want to do. Haha, I just want to wish Kathryn Diane Happy Birthday!! But...it's already 25th...it's over...sob sob...lol. Haha.

Well, want to blog about exams on tuesday actually. I can't believe I actually woke up at 11am this morning, when my exams literally starts at 12pm!! Furthermore, I left house at 1115am!! I can't believe I managed to reach SP and the exam hall on 12pm! On the dot!!

But...but...I'm really worried about my tests right now...but, nevertheless, I shall have faith in my heavenly Father. =)

When on the train to JE in the morning, I then realise there's meeting at RW in the evening... -_-
Arrgh...bad memory, sigh...anyway, had a good time during the meeting. Somemore Xiu Wen, Wei Siong, Kenny and me were supposed to like discussed about some matters we discussed with Pastor, but Kenny and I had exams the next day, so Xiu Wen rather us go back and study. Thanks!! :)

Well, still have not finished my assignment yet...which was already late on due...arrgh, and I still got to study for maths!! Arrghhh!! God, I need your strength...

Rush And Rush And Rush......

ARRGHHH!!!! It's Monday Already!!! I still have not finished my assignment and have not even studied much!!! ARRGHHHH!!! (You all must be thinking, haven't finish assignment and haven't study, still dare to blog...ahhh, just let me blog for awhile...hahaha)

Well, yesterday, Pastor Kong shared a great message about servanthood again. Today there's a sermon outline in the bulletin! Pastor Kong said last time there's a sermon outline was last year!! Haha.

1) The Value Of Invisible Service.
2) The Value Of Individual People.
3) The Value Of Insignificant Gifts.

Joined Kelicia, Kathryn, Rachel and Nicholas for CIC 1st lesson, because I missed it last year though...hahahaha...Pastor CK gave the 1st lesson, and I just love to listen to Pastor CK when he speaks...but, the spirit is willing, the flesh is weak..haha.. I kept dozing off...but, can't blame me... Imagine yourself trying to sleep at 3. You were coughing all the way to 5 plus...you can sleep ah? I can't man...sigh...

After CIC class, we headed down to IMM, Kelicia went home. We then went down to join the cg for celebration of Kathryn's advance birthday. Haha! The cg bought the jellies to replace the cake, and they arranged 16 to be placed on the plate. Haha. Well, at least jellies are not as filling as the cake, as there will be alot of us to finish the jellies though..haha. Went to 'Spaghetti Too' to eat, hmm, the food, is not bad, an the price are actually much more reasonable than pastamania...haha. We then fellowshipped there, asking questions and stuffs, then we all went home. Yesterday did a 'faith-stretching' thing...I tried to endure my stomachache all the way from church to IMM to go home!!! And thank God...I did it...LOL...

OK, enough of the talking...back to work...byee...

I'm in danger...

OMG...The holidays are ending in 2 days time, and I haven't even completed my own assignments yet...and worse still, I haven't even started studying for my tests!! ARRGHH!!!!

Anyway, yesterday's cg was GREAT! There was a cg attendance of 16 yesterday!! Praise the Lord!! Hmm, listing out the people: Xiu Wen, Gary, Jarrett, May, Kathryn, Hui Tong, Wei Siong, Kenny, Wen Shun, Rachel, Shi Ting, Nicholas, Gina, Siyuan, Jarrett's cousin Ken and me...wow... After cg fellowship was FUN!! Haha...Rachel played the piano, Wen Shun and the rest down there singing, haha, Rachel is pro man...haha...Kathryn also another one. Grade 6...Canon in D...Haha... Well, like I said, my cg is all music talented...can sing, or play instruments...lol

Today went to morning pm. Today was even better, I didn't know I was already praying overtime where I'm still like in the first half of the prayer list, and then the worship leader came up and lead the whole church in a worship song... After pm, Gary, Wei Siong, JJ, May, Kathryn and me went to eat breakfast. Today was blessed by JJ for taxi!! Again! Haha, thanks bro!! Heehee, he blessed me like quite a few times already..haha..

Ahh...

Ok, just to sum up what's been happening for the past 2 days.

Yesterday morning went to join the SOT students to pray together for 1 hour. It was great, amazingly, 1 hour passes so fast! And I didn't even get to sleep at all...Seriously, for 1 whole day no sleep...went to join cg for breakfast, JJ, Sheng Hong and 2 girls(don't know who they are...) were there also, then all went home. So I went to banquet to look for W116 and Chun Li.

Accompanied Vic to NP to buy her degree books, helped her carry also, then she 'lend' me money to buy food, because I had none...gotta pay her back still...wahaha...-_- Then I went to Ben's house to play guitar...then I slept at his house for about 2 hours...lol, seriously too tired...Then met up with mum at Lot 1 to eat 'New York New York'. Hmm, the food not bad..haha, quite nice though..lol

Today, was supposed to go for the morning pm, but........

I overslept... -_-!!!

Ok, partly is my fault, because I never set the alarm, but then again, I'm seriously too tired, so I was sleeping all the way...but, thank God, He woke me up on time. Haha. Testimony. I'm able to make it for a ceremony in school which I was supposed to attend. Well, reach there about 945, just in time to make it. It was about our school having this partnership with this hotel and resorts management for like teaching our students the IT stuffs for Hospitality and Tourism. Well, was a little boring listening to all the talks. But the buffet was great! Haha, the food is nice...(I feel as if I'm so kian png...)

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Short post

Ok, last 2 days been sleeping like a pig though...haha, play too much I guess, but I can't play anymore!!! There's an assignment for my web publishing and I've not even started yet!! OMG!!! Gotta rush for it...

Anyway, Father's day service was great! The drama was soooooooooo funny!! hahaha!! Sunday I've graduated from usher training!! Lol! And my cg ps-ed me and went to LJS...HAHA! JUST JOKING! LOL! I went to look for them with Chong, Ben, Wei Liang and Verona..haha. Anyway, Gary brought a friend Mabel, and I read from May's blog, Nicholas and Mabel responded!! Praise the Lord! Our perserverance has finally led to Nicholas's salvation!! Really have more burden in my friends' salvation...P.U.S.H.

Was talking to Ben on the bus on sunday, and he told me something that I've done which in the first place I should not even have did it. Well, so, I guess I owe everyone an apology... For those of you who know what am I trying to say here, I just want to say I'm sorry, even though this may not be able to cover up the damage I've done, but I really want to apologise... And for those who don't understand what's going on here, well, don't bother asking me, I won't say anything...

Well, gotta rush off for my assignment...arrgh, I've still got other modules to study for my mid-sem exams!!! ARRGHHH!!!!!!

P.S. Well, my previous post seems as if I'm writing a compo...lol

YOUTH CAMP!!!!!!

I'm back from youth camp~!!! I can't believe it, 3 days, it just went so fast, I just can't get enough of it, and the times where I can really experience encounters with God again! Furthermore, I just finished my 'dinner', because I just dozed off at around 5 and I woke up at 1237 at midnight...wow...from the day before the first day of camp, I slept 2 hours, first day, 2 hours, second day 3 hours, altogether I'd only slept for 7 hours in 3 days?! My God, I really want to thank God for His strength upon all of us even though we were so tired. Anyway, I just want to say something about the camp: Tired...but fun! Amazing! Awesome! Great! Wonderful! Fantastic! ... ... Ok, my vocab wasn't very good though, these are the words I can think of for now, but I think you know how much I really enjoyed myself in this camp now right...haha. So now, I just want to type about what happened bout me during this 3 day camp, it's gonna be long...haha.

Day 1: Reported at PHS at 830am...initially was supposed to report at 8am, but something happened, which is a testimony though. 630am, I was done with everything, but, I was looking for my specs...I seem to have misplaced it somewhere, I started to panic, I just went around my whole house looking for it, but I just can't seem to find it anywhere...7am, I went into my room and started praying to God about helping me to look for my specs. After I finished praying, Jermain smsed me, he asked all the sound crew members to print out the schedule of the duties we are supposed to do in camp, well, thank God for that, I'm able to print for Wei Siong and Sheng Hong also, but the main thing that's so amazing was that, I found my specs was actually at my desktop printer! Camouflaging with my earpiece! Really want to thank God for that, the sms came so timely, and thank God, I'm able to finish the printing and everything fast enough and rushed out immediately, and I'm actually supposed to meet Kenny at CCK, but due to this, I missed meeting up with him, but it's sort of worth it though..haha..

Reached PHS, it was drizzling, I start to walk fast, and thank God, not long after I settled down, it start to rain heavily...but through the prayers of the leaders, the rain stopped. Praise God! I just can't seem to settle down..haha, I'm just so so excited about this camp, be it whether is it doing my job as a mentor or a sound crew member, I'm just running about everywhere I go...Wei Siong can testify for that...haha... Well, I didn't really get to fellowship with the rest of my cg members other than Wei Siong, and occasionally, with Gary, Wen Shun and Kenny. Moving the speakers, sound console, mics and wires up and down all the way from the seminar room to parade square to hall and back to seminar room again and... well, if you are involved in the camp, you would actually see the sound crew members running like mad in between sessions...haha. During telematch, helped JJ and his team about the game at his station, peeling garlics and onions, squeezing lime juice into the basin of water...haha, it was fun! Anyway, Leslie and I skipped a meal...AHHHH...Haha, it's worth it, because I'm serving God at that time! Erm...looking after the sound console...hahahaha...

After games, the campers have half an hour to wash up, leaders and sound crew members all went up to the seminar room again for a screening of the video 'Indescribable'. THIS VIDEO IS JUST SIMPLY AMAZING. I can't stop thinking about what the preacher in this video has shared and the pictures that he has showned. This is one of it.

This is a picture I got from wikipedia, this is actually about the centre core of the black hole from the whirlpool galaxy in the universe, 31 million light years away and this pic is actually taken by the hubble telescope. Look at this, right now, all I know that my Lord and Saviour Jesus is real! I'M JUST SO IMPACTED BY THIS VIDEO!!!!!!

After the screening, we were moving all the equipments back to hall again for the session missions night, I forgot about one of the sessions...STM... Anyway, the game 'Left Behind', it's just amazing, the games team really did a great job about this. *Clap Clap* Wei Siong and I went to off the lights to stir the atmosphere up. It was seriously very good. The end of the video actually shows about rapture coming, which happens during the second coming of Christ, all who are righteous in the Lord shall all be sent directly up to heaven to meet with the Lord, leaving a group of people here on Earth who will go through trials and tribulations from the anti-christ before going up to heaven. It shows that a preacher is in the church preaching to the whole congregation, then suddenly, thunder strike and the bible the preacher is holding just dropped onto the floor with a loud bang, and 98% of the people in the church were gone, leaving only about less than 18 people looking shocked, and despair, at the end it show a guy covering his face with both his hands and kneeling on the ground. The video then show the 10 commandments of this game, then it shows this sentence "Prepare for Hell", "Mentors take over now"...When groups of 5 began to went out of the seminar room, we can hear screamings from the outside. When it was our turn, Rachel, Hui Tong, Jarrett, Wei Siong and me were in a group. Ok, it got me in one room, where it shows that we left our friends and families back down here on Earth to suffer, and it was already too late to bring them up to heaven, and their hearts were all filled with hatred towards us. This actually makes me feel even more burden for my family and my friends, even more wanting to bring them to Christ, because I really don't want to see them being tortured, especially my beloved family... Anyway, the golden rule of the game, 'Keep silent at all times'...

We then all gathered back at the seminar room, to share and stuff, Pastor then started sharing the power of the cross, we then started praying, people started to manifest, we all lingered in the presence of God for very long, started at around 11 plus, we didn't even know that it was already 1 plus am in the morning, wow, time really passes very fast when we are in the presence of God. Wei Siong saw the light of God, and I felt a touch on my shoulder from God, it's just like a pat on the back of encouragement, felt so good.. All of us then proceed to bathe and stuff, the group of us, Gary, Kenny, Wen Shun, Jarrett, Wei Siong and me slept quite late...

Day 2: Wei Siong and I woke up at 7...ahh, we thought we were going to be late, but who knows, when we went to the toilet to brush our teeth and do some wash-up, we saw Jermain in the toilet...seems like he just woke up...haha, can't blame him also, he has more things to do compared to us...well, thank God we were still able to set up everything right on time for the morning PT. Whew! We then went to have our breakfast before proceeding up to seminar room for morning devotion. Well, I know this is very ironic, we were supposed to do our own prayer, but Wei Siong and I fell asleep...but ironically, I can still hear the music playing while sleeping...Wei Siong says this is the peace of God, God wants us to take some rest...ahh, I don't know...hahaha...

After that, the whole camp were then split into to 3 teams, men, women and mentors, initially I'm not sure whether am I supposed to be in the mentors team, but then Sheng Hong needs people to be at the men's room, so Wei Siong and I just went there...I just felt so tired...kept dozing off...ahhhhh... Dev was preaching about manhood, and I actually learnt something from there..wonder what Pastor shared with the mentors...hmm...

We then went down to have our lunch, some incident happened down here, there were not enough food, but from here, I really see the spirit of excellence and see how the leaders really react quickly to situations like this. Brother Kee Liang actually went out, took $150 and went to the nearest hawker centre to buy food for the whole camp, and the leaders actually were the last to eat, some didn't eat at all, and the some mentors actually sacrificed to let the team eat first before they eat, which mades me feel a little guilty, because I went down to eat...haha...

Ahh, I forgot what happened after lunch...STM...We then had our 1st evangelistic meeting in the camp for the secondary school students, we had a drama done by our leaders and some staffs. Mayce even got injured for the drama...big sacrifice!

Well, anyway, we watched the video of the 'How Great Is Our God" tour part 2 during the evangelistic meeting for the tertiary students. This is even more impacting. In the milky way galaxy, there were so many stars that were actually few million, billion, thrillion and quadrillion times bigger than the size of Earth. After he shared about the stars, he then shared about a protein in our body. Pastor Tan had also shared this before, just that I forgot the name of it... The name of the protein is called laminin. It actually holds our whole body together. This is the picture of laminin.

Can you believe it? This protein in our body is actually in a shape of the cross of Jesus! And this actually holds our whole body together! Read this verse from Colossians 1:16-17(NIV). "For by him all things were created: things in heaven and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or powers or rulers or authorities; all things were created by him and for him. He is before all things, and in him all things hold together." I'm totally so impacted after watching this 2 videos. I'm just so speechless. God is just so awesome. After the meeting, sound crew stayed behind to do the keeping of the equipments, then Wei Siong went down first, and I stayed behind for the briefing for mentors with Pastor CK, had fun too. I then went down to have my dinner. Pineapple rice from the buffet!! Lol! It was nice, yummy! I then start to fellowship with my members, we even played a lot of games. We played animal kingdom at the canteen, we then went to play basketball with 2 other person that we don't know. After that, we went to bathe. Xiu Wen then opened a door for us to like fellowship inside. Xiu Wen is also sacrificing a lot, she did not sleep just to finish reading the book for her SOT, she can't even sing properly due to lack of sleep, and she even had gastric...Dear Lord, I just pray the You will give her strength to carry on to do her assignments, I also pray for healing upon her so that her gastric will be healed. Amen.

Slept at 4 plus in the morning. Really getting tired...

Day 3: Was actually supposed to wake up at 650am, but all of us were just so tired, we actually woke up at 740am in the morning, totally missed the morning PT. May called some of us, but we didn't heard our phone ringing...*yawn*

After washing up, Wei Siong and I immediately went to seminar room to help out. A while later, Jermain came up with packets of food in his hands. He brought food up for us! Thanks a lot! Even though it's just a packet of bee hoon, it's filling enough for our stomach. Started to set up everything and morning devotion starts. Pastor was sharing with us something, but the spirit is willing, the flesh is weak, I just keep dozing off...arrgh...then, at one point of time, I saw many people walking up, I was wondering what are they going up for, I saw Leslie up there, Chun Li and Sherrill up there also, so I roughly guessed that all the mentors are going up, so I just went up there also. When I went up then I realise, Pastor wanted to lay hands on all of us. When it was my turn, all Pastor did was put his hands on my shoulders, and I just started trembling non-stop. When I fall, I'm still trembling. The power of God is indeed great. (actually while typing this, my hands are trembling again...don't know why...haha) When I stood up, Pastor challenged us to take a step of faith to go and pray for rest of the people in the room, believing that we also have the power to make other people fall under the power of God. Well, I went to prayed for Wei Siong, I just prayed for him by faith... And then I went to the other side and I went to catch Rachel, then I walk around to see whether is there other people that needs help or have not been prayed for, well seems like all are done...After that, we were told to get back to our rooms to do the final cleaning up. We then went to take our bags to put into a classroom before going back to seminar room for the final meeting. My cg even took pictures, but Kenny wasn't there...what a waste...

The whole camp then went to hall to take pictures, and the different houses also took pictures. Wei Siong, Gary, Jarrett, Leslie and I stayed back to help Sheng Hong and Jermain to help shift things to the van. Went back with the cg at around 3 plus. Anyway, thank God for His reminder of my pail still left in PHS, if not, my grandmother sure scold me...haha...

Anyway, the leaders really did a good job in planning this whole camp and making it so successful! *CLAP CLAP CLAP* And I'm glad that I learnt a lot of things in this camp, get to know more people and talk to them in this camp, people like Sheng Hong, Jermain, Dev, Guo Dong, Leslie...last but not least, my Father God!! For the encounters with Him and touched by Him. Heehee, Sheng Hong is a guitar pro, one more person for guitar consulting...haha..

Just now when I woke up, I was actually wondering why Pastor placed his hands on my shoulder, then I realised I sort of got injured while shifting the speakers and stuffs, and my shoulders were actually aching and hurting if I move too much, after thinking this, I tried to move my hands, no pain and aches anymore!!!! Praise the Lord!!

Well, it's really getting early now, I really need to sleep...*yawn~*

Unfruitfulness brings demotion...

Ok, I know the title sounds kind of serious though...anyway, just want to blog about this though...

Today after usher, saw Xiu Wen talking to Jarrett, Gary, Hui Tong, Wei Siong. I guess it was maybe about some cgcs thing, so I went in, and I went in and found out that all 5 of us had been demoted...ok, sounds kind of sudden to some people, but to me, it wasn't...I expected it...just didn't know that it would come so soon...

Actually, reflecting about myself, I seriously never done much, ever since I became a cgc, I didn't really do much to be honest. A few times is I really don't know how to handle certain stuffs, the rest is I never really help out, yes I do, but not much...not much......

Saying that after hearing this I'm not sad at all is seriously talking nonsense, of course I'm sad, I'm still a normal human right, humans do have feelings, if I feel nothing after this, I can go die...but, have to move on though, after all, not being a cgc doesn't mean that you can't serve God right? You can help out in ministry, help out in cg in various ways you can, do other things other than holding a title and do nothing much...I was actually thinking and reflecting upon myself when I was on the LRT, what are the things that I should have do but not done yet...And I also have this thinking... Anyway, I'm not beaten down so easily...I will stand up and move on...

Maybe I'm not really suitable to become a leader in any areas for the time being...either I screw up or other issues, or maybe I'm just suitable to be following in the lead of others after all...well, I don't know, time will tell, and God will lead me...

Went to cut my hair to super short yesterday, didn't really expect my cg members to say that I look good in this haircut...hmm, haha, I was just expecting them to say I got another haircut again...lol...

Ok, I just want to really do reflecting...I don't know what seriously went wrong with me and my life...am I really taking things for granted? or am I just not good enough...I really don't know...seems like there's intense spiritual warfare tonight...

Weird Dream

Ok, I slept till 2 plus just now...cos I slept at 6 plus in the morning...I was playing psp...lol...Well, that's not the point...

I had this weird dream during this long period of sleep...I dreamt that this friend of mine, jumped down a window from a building and died, and I was in the room with this person, watching this person just climbed out of the window and jumped, while I stood down there doing nothing to stop him... (Before I continue, my friends out there please don't be scared, I can assure you that the person I dreamt of is not one of you out there, but instead, I didn't even see this person before, but in my dreams I just seem to know this person...)

Ok, back, then I just peeped out of the window and I saw that person laid on the ground, motionless, with blood around him...and I just broke into despair... then, people come around and comfort me and then I woke up...

Well, this has led me into a thinking. People, treasure those that are around you, please don't take them for granted, at times other people may have done things for us and we are grateful to them, but when time goes by, we just take them for granted. Things should not go on like this, we never know what's going to happen the next day, so learn to love those that are around you, even your enemies!

Lol, when did I became so sentimental... :P

My time management needs to be better!

It seems like my time management is DECLINING... I'm late for last Sunday's service, bs, Saturday cgm at the church...sigh... Why... I really need better time management, and also need to re-think about everything...

Had my first usher training yesterday...I can't believe it, it's not because that I met these kind of person, and not because I've never met such kind of person before, well, it's just...

Sigh, forget it...I just can't believe there's such bossy and unreasonable people around...ducks...but, I'm amazed that I can already answer that person nicely and with a SMILE somemore...lol, and thanks Ng for helping me also! Anyway, because ushers can't really sit with their cg, I kind of miss them...lol. I happened to sit beside one lady while serving, and she said something to me which really encourages me. She said, 'Thanks for serving!' I mean, this may sound simple and meaningless to you, but to a person who is serving, this is really a form of encouragement, right.

Well, went to eat with Kenny, Wen Shun, May and Siyuan after the service, went to JP to eat LJS...lol, we then went to Marina Square, Kenny wants to buy his slippers, but there isn't the size that suits him, he's kind of sad though, Siyuan was supposed to be looking at her winter clothes, but we didn't look at any in the end...lol.