Happy and sad

Well, been back to West Spring for about a week. Starting to get use to the life of waking up damn early in the morning.

I've been posted to 5A, well, I knew most of the people there, so I don't feel very strange there. Still trying to look for ways to improve on my science and combined humanities, and of course, improve on my maths and english too. I'm sad to say that the time between 'O' levels now, although seems far to some people, but to me, it's near. Last year I used to tell myself not to play, study hard, work hard, revise my work. In the end, I got nothing, because I didn't really push myself hard enough back then. For this year, whatever motivation I tell myself, I'm gonna make sure I'm gonna do it. I don't want to stay another year in west spring, or get myself nowhere to go in the end. So this year, it 's time to push myself REAL HARD!!!

For the happy part, although it's not related to studies in any way, but I just feel good enough. Next monday, sec 5A and 5B are going to play a soccer match against 4H. Ali told me to be keeper, and the rest just persuaded me to join. I feel happy that I can play with them. But the problem is, with my wrist injured since january, will I be able to perform well on that day? Well, no one knows. Just hope I don't make any mistakes. -_-

Just now in the afternoon, I went to the motivation talk. At first I thought it was going to be one boring and stupid talk. To my surprise, the person speaking is quite funny to me and I enjoyed it, and I do learn alot. With Chen Peng that clown in the class, the whole talk just burst into laughters when he speaks something funny. Hahaha.

Well, this year, I gotta promised myself to study damn hard this year, no more fooling around, no more playing. I have learnt my lessons once, I don't want to go through this again...

WHY? Why Is It Like That?

Oh great oh great oh great. Holidays are here, well, so? Some of you out there are certainly happy, but not me. Why? because after this I'm going back to school!

Why is it like this? Why is there some people out there makes us wake up so early in the morning just for the sake of reaching school before 7:30 am? Why do they make us carry so many books to and fro school? Why do they want to make everyone a bookworm? Is studying the only to survive in this cruel society? Isn't there an exception or something? Why does people only look at certificates and diplomas and degrees and whatever it is? Why is it like this? why? Why? WHy? WHY? I don't understand god, why is it always have to be like this? Why are we like a puppet being manipulated? We wake up in the morning, wash up, breakfast, go to school, study, come home, bathe, eat dinner, study again. WOW, WHAT A LIFESTYLE IT IS.

Man, for 10 years and I'm just sick of this kind of stupid lifestyle, if life in the school would be a little relaxed like other countries, and the timing would allow us to have one or one and a half more hours to sleep, we wouldn't be going to schools with eyelids half open, dozing off in teachers' speeches, and of course, scratching heads in examinations.

Some people said students are better than working. Yes I agree with that, but only with the timings of the schooling changes, and the number of tests would be reduced. I've always thought about this question, 'Is examinations really the only way to prove someone's ability?' Think about it, you might come out with an answer of your own.

This is what I've always asked myself, 'Life is stress, study study study, exams exams exams, are our lives really filled with this?' Maybe you can answer it now, but not me for sure, maybe I can answer it in a few years time, or maybe for my whole life I will never seek out the answer. Have you?

Sigh...Boring Life Again...

Sigh, I just went back to sch to ask for whether can I repeat another year, although Mr Seet, the principal said yes, I just don't feel any happiness in my heart. I was just thinking in my mind, 'Man, I gotta wake up everyday at 6 a.m.' Sigh, This is going to be so tired.

Once I thought of this waking up at 6 in the morning everyday, I just feel very boring. Maybe because all my good friends left the school, leaving me and few others behind.

Well, this actually serves a very good lesson for me. I must make sure this year I got to work harder than last year, since I got another chance, I got to work hard to prove myself this year, as this year I have even lesser time.

Some of the phrases in the previous blog that I posted, I need to work on something like that, as the saying goes, 'Talk is Cheap'. Well, even I don't feel like studying now, I still must force myself to, I must tell myself that this is my last chance...

Moodless...Emotionless

Sigh, the results for the JAE admissions was out yesterday 8am or something. The first thing in the morning, Filbert called me and told me that none of the courses that I have chosen was selected.

Sad. :(

Now I'm still waiting for the JPSAE, which I had applied for music. I wonder will I get in. I was wondering the whole day, what if I can't even get in this? Or what can I work as when I come out? Man...

Sometimes I just think, did I made the right choice for not retaining like the others? A second chance isn't so bad after all. Well, actually, I can't really concentrate in school, so might as well don't go back. But if I really (touch wood!!) can't even get into music, my only choice is to take private. My mum say ITE, although is a choice, but need to upgrade very often. So maybe my only choice left, retake, but I hope I would not have to.

Wave after wave of setbacks for me. Been a long time since I went back to church and praise the lord.

Just finished reading Cerenna's new post.

The Cerenna I knew is finally back, her cheerful character is back. Well, if Cerenna's going to read this, let me tell you something. "Work hard this year, but also, don't try studying whenever you have free time. Sometimes just go out and do whatever you like. Tennis, jogging, photographing...whatever...just, don't give yourself too much pressure. Even if you were to fail in class test, don't drop your head, look at where you go wrong, learn from it. I think your mistake last year was that you give yourself too much pressure, and you just keep studying and not relaxing at times." Saying till here, you must be wondering what about me. Well, I just simply relaxed too much. HaHaHaHa!!! -_-

Well, the results show that I have relaxed way too much.

A word to those people taking major exams, don't relax too much, relax only during weekends, but of course, don't relax on weekends during exams, just try to take a break or something in between studies. Well, that's all I have to say.

Ouch

I woke up early today, only to know i punched my fist against a large wooden plank beside my bed. Why? Haha, I was dreaming about something about me a kind of war or something, i was about to punch the enemy, which was actually me punching the plank (OUCH!!). Well, no choice then, I didn't did it on purpose, now i've got one sore fist to take care of.

God bless my fist to be better