I don't know what's gotten over me...

Saturday went to Riverwalk to attend this newcomers' tea stuff. In the end went to help out as a usher at the last minute. Haha, I get the taste how an usher feels like. Hmm, ok, not bad, maybe can consider, but maybe Xiu Wen won't allow...haha...

After everything, all of us went to Central© foodcourt to have our...hmm, I wonder that's lunch or dinner...anyway, that's not the point. In fact, the frustrating part is that my Yong Tau Fu, I ate halfway, went to buy drink, and I came back with the cleaner cleaning my bowl away, and half of the bowl just poof, gone like that...my food...the rest of them were supposed to go to hotel to celebrate Vic's birthday, it's a surprise meal specially planned to celebrate for her.

Hmm, this is where the problem starts, I just don't know why, after everyone's gone, I just feel so bored, lonely...arrgh...maybe because my nature can't stands boredom, well, I don't know...Funny thing is this, I went to City Hall to meet my mum, I went to the toilet at City Hall, planning to walk back to City Hall MRT station, I was like looking at the floor along the way, in my mind I was thinking wonder will I meet anyone of them here. Who knows, when I lift my head up, I saw Xiu Wen and Elaine!! Then I saw the rest of the people, Ben dragged me along to walk with them, well, thinking that I had nothing to do, I just followed them.

Arrgh, seems like I'm always got to be going through boredom and loneliness... why? why? Man, when is the time that I'm able to break free from this curse? when? when? God, can You tell me when? Can You help me? Can You lead me out from this? God, I need You...

Hope jamming on sunday will be able to bring me back. Anyway, I'm much better now in a sense, luckily emotionally stuffs I'm able to heal quite fast...

I'm starting to fall...

Till now, I'm just still wondering and asking, 'God, is this really what You want me to do?' The responsibilities of a cgc, I'm still learning to take it, and I'm still learning, but one thing, especially forecast of attendance, if I can't get the exact numbers and the accurate forecast, I'll just get something. But, sometimes, can't really blame them also, sometimes it's just me not asking them properly, when can I just start to ask them the correct questions, do the correct stuffs, give the correct answers? When? When? I'm just still seeking... Sometimes have thoughts of giving up, but, no way, I shall persevere, like what Jesus said, 'not my will, but Yours be done.'

Amen.

Back from chalet...

Actually I was planning on blogging this on the afternoon, but, the com has problems, and so I went to my room to lie down for awhile, but in the end, I fell asleep, guess I was too tired...

Hmm, I did made quite a lot of new friends in this camp...haha, Wei Siong, Desmond, Chee Wai, Cheryl, Roscelle, Hai Kiat, Kelvin, Samuel, Aaron, Joycelyn, Isabelle and etc... arrgh, can't really name all... haha. It's was fun though, the games really bonded everyone together, get to know each other better. During the night time, people who stayed, had a great time fellowshipping, had fun, games, and of course... FOOD!!!! Hahaha.. I think the game that was fun was the blind cat and the reverse of hide-and-seek...had so much fun. This guy, Alvan, a guitarist/bassist, man, he's good! I think have the same standard as Yong Jing!! Haha.

Around 5 plus, a group of us went to watch sunrise. Guess what?

We actually sat at the wrong side...which means...the sun was rising up at the back of where we are facing!! -_- Never mind, next time then... here are some pics that I took though, even though not very nice...haha

All of us went to Mac to eat when we left, and finally, I'm able to clear my craving of Big Breakfast. Wahaha, and Cheryl's able to clear her craving for Mcflurry. Lol.

Well, I shall stop here... tired...

Easter Weekend.

One thing I just want to comment about first is the CHC Drama Team.

They never fail us at all. Why?

Because there's always something that's memorable in each and every single drama. For example, last year's Easter drama, was a rap from the song called 'Tokyo Drift', this year, they took a song from a movie '881', and there's this song, "zi lang zi bua, gam qing buey sua...' and stuff, haha, it's just so funny...

At expo, the drama was even better, it's about an invention called 'i-Ming', which can let you view your memories, and can also travel back in time. I mean, this is so cool... Anyway, all I can say that those that I've invited you for Easter this year, you didn't even want to come, it's your loss...haha!!

Went for 4 services for the past 2 days, Xiu Wen asked me to take a rest at home, because I've attended 4, and it's like more than enough...but I think if there's a need, then I'll go for Sunday's service...

On Friday, served at JAMs Church, was great, recharged spiritually...and I knocked my head against an unknown-metal-quite-sharp object, luckily I did not bleed, but it's like swollen on my head, and now it's still pain... Went for service after serving, went for 2, didn't have the chance to eat dinner, even though I like only eat 2 biscuits in the afternoon before I rushed out, never mind, for God I press on!!! We then waited for Xiu Wen and Elaine at the coffeeshop, together with Jarrett, Wei Siong, May, and Wen Shun!! Reached home about 12... *yawn*

On Saturday, went for the expo service, saw Elaine, Shifu and Wei Liang at JE, met up with Kenny, Nicholas and Wei Huang (hope I spelt correctly) at JE, and supposed to meet Daniel, Shi Ting and another girl (I don't know how to spell her name) on the last cabin of the train, but in the end we don't even know where they are, so we can only meet them up at Tanah Merah. Upon reaching Expo, we then realised that we board the same train with Xiu Wen, only thing was she was at the front, and we were at the back. We ate before we went to queue up, the hall was packed very fast! After 1st service ended, some had to leave, the others stayed, and we encountered a problem, all 3 cg, Elaine, Xiu Wen and Serene cg all facing seats crisis, some people just came and put their stuffs over our seats...well, never mind...Kathryn and Yingli brought 2 friends along, Wei Siong attended the 530 service because he was too tired. The second service was like awesome! In the beginning, I didn't really expect much, but who knows, when Pastor Kong begin to lead us in a old song that they used to sing during Easter, I was touched by God, and I just cried. Felt so recharged and good to be renewed by God once again. Something not very good happened after service, but luckily it was solved quickly...Had lots of fun on the train, ah, brings back the memories of the journey back home when we were still attending expo services. Ate at the Jurong Entertainment Centre, when leaving, those leaving at Boon Lay went off 1st, left Kenny, the rest, Wei Siong, Nicholas, and me accompanied May to wait for her father to come and fetch her, not very good for a girl to wait alone down there, so we all accompanied her, and just like chit chat for awhile. After that all of us went off. I don't really know what happened to Daniel though... I feel tired... *yawns*

Anyway, I'm officially 1 year old in Christ on Friday!!! Yipeee!!!

Starting to get used to my work...

After the second day working at coffee bean, I'm starting to get A LITTLE used to the speed of everything and how to handle during peak hours and stuff. Hope to really get used to it soon...

Anyway, I forgot to add an ingredient to one of the drink... I hope the customer can't taste the difference...

Yesterday, Ben and I worked on the same day, so we went backed together. Shared alot along the way, we even sat on the stairs of the LRT station to talk...

He shared some of his testimonies, which really impacted me alot, and also stirred the fire in me again...anyway, I'm still learning how to be a cgc, but seems like I'm helpless in almost everything...

Ben said that I grow faster than him, in less than a year I've been promoted as a helper, but, even if I grow fast, I don't have enough experiences to really cover for what is needed, sometimes I just feel so helpless...

For example, basic things like encouraging members... I can't even bring myself to talk to them... I'm just wondering, when can I really throw away this thing call low self esteem? Arrgh...what am I suppposed to do? God, guide me through...

After talking with Ben, I feel the burden of reaching out to the lost again, the burden is much more stronger now. I'll try my best to really reach out for Easter...

One more thing, servanthood. All I have to do is to really apply this, and those things that I have learnt in Church, I should have no problems in handling my work and the people around there...

First day at work

Hmm, finally started working at coffee bean, a little havoc and rush to be true. Why?

Especially during luch hours and dinner hours, it's like so so so rush, everthing must be fast, the drinks, food, service and stuff... Furthermore, I just finished my training not long ago, and I still need sometime to really go memorise the steps and the ingredients of all the drinks...today started only in ice-blended station, but there's 16 DRINKS FOR ME TO REMEMBER!!! Never mind, slowly...these things need to practiced over and over again...I'll find a day to really go memorise the steps and the ingredients of all the ice blended drinks before I move to the hot drinks station...

I think I really need to get used to the speed of the work and stuffs, and also the fussy customers...today I already met one, he's not fussy, but a little...hmm, how should I put it... proud? arrogant? act big? I don't know, roughly the meanings that move around the three types that I have mentioned...

I also really got to start to plan my time properly, like for the upcoming bs classes, for my cgm, and when school starts I also have to take note of my schedule...arrgh... alot of things to take note of...until now I'm still a little regretting working, if not for money...sigh...

Hectic and Chaotic Week

Arrghh...this week was so hectic and chaotic...all because of me...sigh...

Hmm, let's see what happened this week...

Mon: Went to cut hair and buy black working shoes for work (coffee bean)...sigh...
Tues: Orientation of coffee bean, 6-10 pm...
Wed: Ice-blended training, 6-9 pm...

Thurs: Went to do medical check-up for my poly early in the morning, afternoon went to riverwalk to meet Pastor CK...

Fri: Supposedly to join cg for outing, but it clashes with the poly enrolment and orientation, at night will have to attend pm...

sigh...let me tell you why this week is so hectic...

On sunday, I actually mistook 14 of March is on thursday, which actually in fact it was on friday!!

Arrgh...I can't fellowship with the cg...sigh, arrgh, I have to settle my poly admin stuffs!!

Forget it, can always plan another outing...

Problems emerging...

Hmm, it's going to be close to a week not blogging if I don't blog now...

Well, since I'm blogging, I might as well blog about this matter...

Seems like my cg is facing one problem after another, I don't really get it, why are there so many problems...maybe God is trying to test us? To mould us into a stronger and even more united cg? I don't know, but seems like now is the most toughest period we've ever faced...CGCs, gotta pray more often!!!

I don't want to mention who's involved in these problems, but sometimes, if we're just going to be more understanding, be willing to know each other better, be willing to open up and talk, be able to talk things out in a more peaceful way, be able to take a step back, and we'll be able to see the broad and beautiful sky...but, such things are easier said than done...

Things are not going normally in my cg now, it may seems on the outside...this is the time to really stand up and pray, W143, let's stand up and pray fervently for this!!

Woohoo!! F.I.R.!!

Wow! The service was great man! Can you believe it? F.I.R. came to our church to perform, was nice seeing Fei-er(Faye) singing, and Ah Qing(Real) playing the electric guitar. So fun...

This morning, waited for so many people... Met up with Kelicia, then met up with Daniel(Jar's friend), then I think his 2 friends also, May and her friend and her sister, Siyuan...altogether 8 person...man...so many people...
Man, I must say I'm so so unlucky la...fell down at riviera, I ran, slipped on the puddle of water and fell, second is on the stairs...man, I was so embarrassed... well, never mind...

Man, I must say I'm so so unlucky la...fell down at riviera, I ran, slipped on the puddle of water and fell, second is on the stairs...man, I was so embarrassed... well, never mind...

Pastor Kong preached a very good message today also, he tried to squeeze a 3 hour sermon into a 20 mins sermon... the topic is about servanthood. I think I heard it before, either in cg or in a service last year...

Arrgh, at first thought today was able to go for the drum audition, but today was for vocals and dancers, never mind, I got more time to practice!! Haha...

Celebrated Siyuan's birthday also, even though it was like early by a few days, haha, bought this pink piglet cup for her, like what Xiu Wen said, I'm confident...haha, like I bought the chain for Wei Siong last year... I'm confident! :P

Anyway, I've got to settle my work stuffs quickly, my photocopied materials, and the typhoid injection, got to settle it quickly...