Happy and sad

Well, been back to West Spring for about a week. Starting to get use to the life of waking up damn early in the morning.

I've been posted to 5A, well, I knew most of the people there, so I don't feel very strange there. Still trying to look for ways to improve on my science and combined humanities, and of course, improve on my maths and english too. I'm sad to say that the time between 'O' levels now, although seems far to some people, but to me, it's near. Last year I used to tell myself not to play, study hard, work hard, revise my work. In the end, I got nothing, because I didn't really push myself hard enough back then. For this year, whatever motivation I tell myself, I'm gonna make sure I'm gonna do it. I don't want to stay another year in west spring, or get myself nowhere to go in the end. So this year, it 's time to push myself REAL HARD!!!

For the happy part, although it's not related to studies in any way, but I just feel good enough. Next monday, sec 5A and 5B are going to play a soccer match against 4H. Ali told me to be keeper, and the rest just persuaded me to join. I feel happy that I can play with them. But the problem is, with my wrist injured since january, will I be able to perform well on that day? Well, no one knows. Just hope I don't make any mistakes. -_-

Just now in the afternoon, I went to the motivation talk. At first I thought it was going to be one boring and stupid talk. To my surprise, the person speaking is quite funny to me and I enjoyed it, and I do learn alot. With Chen Peng that clown in the class, the whole talk just burst into laughters when he speaks something funny. Hahaha.

Well, this year, I gotta promised myself to study damn hard this year, no more fooling around, no more playing. I have learnt my lessons once, I don't want to go through this again...

WHY? Why Is It Like That?

Oh great oh great oh great. Holidays are here, well, so? Some of you out there are certainly happy, but not me. Why? because after this I'm going back to school!

Why is it like this? Why is there some people out there makes us wake up so early in the morning just for the sake of reaching school before 7:30 am? Why do they make us carry so many books to and fro school? Why do they want to make everyone a bookworm? Is studying the only to survive in this cruel society? Isn't there an exception or something? Why does people only look at certificates and diplomas and degrees and whatever it is? Why is it like this? why? Why? WHy? WHY? I don't understand god, why is it always have to be like this? Why are we like a puppet being manipulated? We wake up in the morning, wash up, breakfast, go to school, study, come home, bathe, eat dinner, study again. WOW, WHAT A LIFESTYLE IT IS.

Man, for 10 years and I'm just sick of this kind of stupid lifestyle, if life in the school would be a little relaxed like other countries, and the timing would allow us to have one or one and a half more hours to sleep, we wouldn't be going to schools with eyelids half open, dozing off in teachers' speeches, and of course, scratching heads in examinations.

Some people said students are better than working. Yes I agree with that, but only with the timings of the schooling changes, and the number of tests would be reduced. I've always thought about this question, 'Is examinations really the only way to prove someone's ability?' Think about it, you might come out with an answer of your own.

This is what I've always asked myself, 'Life is stress, study study study, exams exams exams, are our lives really filled with this?' Maybe you can answer it now, but not me for sure, maybe I can answer it in a few years time, or maybe for my whole life I will never seek out the answer. Have you?

Sigh...Boring Life Again...

Sigh, I just went back to sch to ask for whether can I repeat another year, although Mr Seet, the principal said yes, I just don't feel any happiness in my heart. I was just thinking in my mind, 'Man, I gotta wake up everyday at 6 a.m.' Sigh, This is going to be so tired.

Once I thought of this waking up at 6 in the morning everyday, I just feel very boring. Maybe because all my good friends left the school, leaving me and few others behind.

Well, this actually serves a very good lesson for me. I must make sure this year I got to work harder than last year, since I got another chance, I got to work hard to prove myself this year, as this year I have even lesser time.

Some of the phrases in the previous blog that I posted, I need to work on something like that, as the saying goes, 'Talk is Cheap'. Well, even I don't feel like studying now, I still must force myself to, I must tell myself that this is my last chance...

Moodless...Emotionless

Sigh, the results for the JAE admissions was out yesterday 8am or something. The first thing in the morning, Filbert called me and told me that none of the courses that I have chosen was selected.

Sad. :(

Now I'm still waiting for the JPSAE, which I had applied for music. I wonder will I get in. I was wondering the whole day, what if I can't even get in this? Or what can I work as when I come out? Man...

Sometimes I just think, did I made the right choice for not retaining like the others? A second chance isn't so bad after all. Well, actually, I can't really concentrate in school, so might as well don't go back. But if I really (touch wood!!) can't even get into music, my only choice is to take private. My mum say ITE, although is a choice, but need to upgrade very often. So maybe my only choice left, retake, but I hope I would not have to.

Wave after wave of setbacks for me. Been a long time since I went back to church and praise the lord.

Just finished reading Cerenna's new post.

The Cerenna I knew is finally back, her cheerful character is back. Well, if Cerenna's going to read this, let me tell you something. "Work hard this year, but also, don't try studying whenever you have free time. Sometimes just go out and do whatever you like. Tennis, jogging, photographing...whatever...just, don't give yourself too much pressure. Even if you were to fail in class test, don't drop your head, look at where you go wrong, learn from it. I think your mistake last year was that you give yourself too much pressure, and you just keep studying and not relaxing at times." Saying till here, you must be wondering what about me. Well, I just simply relaxed too much. HaHaHaHa!!! -_-

Well, the results show that I have relaxed way too much.

A word to those people taking major exams, don't relax too much, relax only during weekends, but of course, don't relax on weekends during exams, just try to take a break or something in between studies. Well, that's all I have to say.

Ouch

I woke up early today, only to know i punched my fist against a large wooden plank beside my bed. Why? Haha, I was dreaming about something about me a kind of war or something, i was about to punch the enemy, which was actually me punching the plank (OUCH!!). Well, no choice then, I didn't did it on purpose, now i've got one sore fist to take care of.

God bless my fist to be better

Bored

These few days i really got nothing to do, I just go around surfing net and see what i can find to keep myself occupied, but, well, none actually.

I have been reading other peoples' blogs lately (of course from the people I knew), i found out that others actually have more things to talk about and typed longer. Sometimes i don't understand, I asked myself, why do you have so much to talk about?

Is it because like some people say, my life is just one boring piece of shit? And others are more colourful than me? Or is it that my life is also aas colourful as others? Just that I'm too lazy to accept and to go through it?

Well, speaking of colourful, the most colourful days in my life should be the days in secondary 4, where everybody come together and mug towards the nightmare, the 'O' levels. Well, actually, the more colourful ones are those that we come together and play, not study. LOL

Well, today I am going to watch ghost rider. I can't wait for tomorrow. Raymond and I, probably chuen wee and boon peng are going to filbert's house. Maybe we are going to play whole day non stop. Haha, well, enjoy while you can. Just relax, problems can be solve this way.

God bless

Happy Chinese New Year!!!!

Gong Xi Fa Cai! Finally it's chinese new year!

The application for the JAE is over for about a week, I had signed myself up for the music through JPSAE, i wonder will I get in. To think of this, I'm still wondering why did I signed that up, do I really like that course, or just because a passion for only a few moments? And regret when I get in. I heard that I need to go through an audition before I can get into this course. Well, i wonder will I get in. Kinda scared when I think of this.

Well, enough said of this, I don't dare to say my marks when people asked me about my marks during visits. Well, serves me right for playing and playing, no point regretting now. Well, I gotta stop here, maybe I'll post again soon. Well, happy new year everyone!!

Impact after impact

I got 2 impacts in just 2 days...Read on...

I just got my 'O' Level results 2 days ago, well, results don't really seem to be what I've expected...Serves me right for playing and playing, now I'm the one suffering. This was the first impact that i'm talking about.

The second one was during soccer yesterday morning. I was like blocking all the shots during the matches that I've played, but in one match, one stupid idiot actually shoots infront of the semi-circle and instead of tapping, he actually ram it directly to me, towards my right hand also. Normally when a player is down on the floor on the court, the person who has the last contact with the person on the floor will actually go check out the person on the floor, to see whether is he alright. That idiot who injure me, not only did he not come to check on me, not even a word of apology, dude, my hand is sprained, and now I'm typing this with my sprained hand.. This is the second impact. As you can see, the word impact can be used in 2 different ways. Talking crap am I?

Well, better stop here, my hand is feeling pain now, I don't want my hand to worsen...God bless

Stress met at work

Man, working at creative is slack, ppl when they saw me work at creative, they only see one side of it...they will nvr know what are the busiest times and the bad mood we met durin work.

Well, for me, I have met 4 very idiotic customers, rating from 1 to 4, the most kuai lan one is the ppl i met yesterday night. When i was about to leave, 2 person came up, and they told me that the shop close until 10, but it's actually close till 9, but they insist they it close until 10. Ok, nvm, den when the tomboy idiotic woman say what: "this is terrible!" "this is ridiculous!" man, i was so damn angry and almost scolded her... Basket, she think she wat, president's daughter ah, kao eh, f*** sia, man, i hate it man...

A word to all the fussy customers out there...If you think you are so great, den don take all these FREE stuffs lah, why must you all be so KIASU and CHEAPSKATE????? Man, please lah, just one cheap cheap stuff you all also want to take, your got NO SHAME AH?

Working while blogging???

Haha...long time since i posted any shit on this....

Finally I found myself a work, working at creative, at a redemption counter...sometimes kinda boring, but when u r busy, heh heh, u got no time to stop, when i am blogging this, i gotta make sure that there is no one that need my help..haha

It's been a long time since I posted any thing, I oso donno what to write...While i was writing halfway, someone needed my help...well, I helped...haha

Kinda scared now...2 mths later I will be receiving my O levels results...god, what shud i do? I'm afraid I did no do well, but, even if I have to regret, it's too late, I have to leave everything to god now...

Hope so, god bless me, and my friends, my classmates, all those who took O levels this year...

Prelims comin

well, I sure say that time goes fast for the graduating classes, it's just a blink of an eye and here we are, towards the last few days of August. The second last day, we will be having our English prelim paper, die liao lah...scared I fail, Eng is the most important subject of all...

Well, maths I can do a little more practices, phy gotta remember all the formulas and laws...arrghh, I hate it...chem, still can cope, but still not very stable...the worst is humanities...Geography and combined humanities. Geography, I have to memorise all the steps of how something form in physical geography and how to analyze in human geography...History, still gotta remember the important events and of course, social studies, gotta remember this conflict, that conflict...so borin...most important...write fast. F&N, just focus on theory, hopefully I can vomit everything on the essay question.

It's time to countdown now people, for we have only about less than a week to prelims, then a month or two, it's the 'O's...we gotta prepare ourselves for this last battle after ten years of preparations...after one month, it's party time...YEAH!!! SO, THE IMPORTANT THING NOW IS TO STUDY!!! STOP PLAYING!!! LOL, god bless us..yeah..and work hard...

Study hard

Haha, I've gotta study hard now..no more slackin and playin..coz the prelims are around the corner. Few more weeks after the prelims, we will be facing our greatest nightmares...the 'O' levels...haha, just jokin...If u have studied hard, paid attention in class, always do revision, u should have no problem in it...I wonder if anyone who's reading my blog now is like this...well..luck is also important, but, still working hard is the key...

Man, more and more tuition...King wants to join my eng tuition, together with kelvin, and I gotta go to chem tuition with the ppl I have mentioned in my last posting..den my maths with the same tutor of english...well...just work hard, study, revise and listen in class.

My chinese got A2, but i want to retake, in order to get A1, as this one point makes a lot of difference to the overall points...well...haha...let nature takes its course then, we just have to work hard, that's all.

F&N coursework

Man, I've gotta do my coursework like hell man...It's like very rush...although the deadline has been pushed back for us...I got like donno how many pages to complete...now still tryin to 'qiong' for it...

Man, tomorrow, i will be having my English 'O' levels oral...die liao lah...i scared i will start to stutter when i start to speak or i will read the passage too weird...shit man...'O' levels sux man...but no choice, still gotta take the exam, it's for our own good, but everyday in our life is "study, exams, study, exams..." It's so borin...we dont even have the time to pick out time for our own leisure time...

I will be going for a new chemistry tuition next wednesday, together with kelvin, cerenna, shirley, jasmine and hui min...I wonder how the teacher will teach...whether is it good or not...but judging from darryl, jing yi and ali's results, I think should be not bad lah...so, just no worries and work hard...

Shit man...prelims...than 'O' levels...arrghh!!! STRESS LIFE AHHH!!!!

Doggy gone...sob sob

After school, I went back home. I was preparing to play with the dog as the dog is to be given away soon. But when I open the door, my mum's room was open, I thought my grandmother let it run around the hse, but I look around the hse, I just cannot find the dog. Then she told me the dog was brought down by my mum, then it came back by itself, but she did not let it in, cos she closed the wooden door. You know when I heard this, I was so fed up and upset, I went into the room to cry over the dog.

I was afraid that the dog has nothing to eat outside...I'm scared that it would get beaten by small primary school boys...I'm scared that it might get into an accident...I'm scared of everything...Now that I have nothing left of the dog, only its food, napkin, shampoo (which I did not even get to use it), its toy, and the video I took for him the day it went into our hse...sob sob.
If the dog meets an accident outside, I will never forgive you both for the rest of my live...What I hope now is I hope that god will bless him to find a good owner to take care of him...with food, bed everything that he needs, and I hope that he will be happy, better than my home, where there are two DAMN EVIL person...I hope that the family will just love the dog, like my mum and I do...

In Jesus name we pray, amen......

Dog or no dog

On Sunday, during about 11pm, a yellowish dog came into my hse, tit's kinda cute, my mum said that she want to keep it. I was so happy, coz this is the first time I'm having a dog as a pet. I was so happy that time. Yesterday my mum and I even went to buy the essential things for the dog.

Everything was so happy until my stupid father, he has some kind of aura around him, as dogs are sensitive, it just keeps on barking at him, my father, donno what the hell is wrong with him, threatens to hit the dog. Well, if you tries to hit a dog, it will bark even louder, then my father took his jeans tried to whack the dog, but luckily, it ran away quickly, and it came and sit on my lap. Before he went out, he sarcastically said that this is a beast, not a human, why didn't I hug my brother like I hug this dog.

I feel like telling him that time, how did you know that I did not hug my sickly brother before, did he also show the same care towards my sick brother also? All he do is always beat him hard, even though he is a brain tumor victim. This kind of thing, it cannot be blamed right? All he knows is to take my brother to vent his anger. What else does he know?

Now, the dog will be leaving me soon, either give it to Jane, or my mum's friend. I can't bear to leave this dog. Is it funny? Just a night or two and I have already built a strong relationship with dog? Or am I being too emotional? I donno, and I don want to know...It' s just..I'll miss the dog, after buying things for him, I hate it, I don't want to give this dog away. I really hate it...I just hope that this 1 year old puppy will find a more comfortable home and a dog owner who loves him more than we do, and I do hope that the dog will be happy there...All I wish for is to find a pace for this doggy to stay happyily without being threatened and I can visit him easily... :( sob sob...

After F&N 'O' Levels

Well...it's over. My cooking...it's not bad...but somehow, my steam egg, bleh...no taste at all (sux man!!) But few ppl think that my baked fish is not bad, worth a try...Yes, can improve on it. Whereas, my rice sandwich, it's too big, and the fillings keep on dropping out from between the seaweed. Maybe it's becoz i nvr cover the rice after i finish mixing the ingredients, so that's why, it's still so loose between the rice. It's a waste, coz that time, i can play soccer in school. Well, 'O' levels more important...that time, our team play against Ridwan's team, the Royal Blues, with Ilyas and Hakim in their team...Most of our teammates went to D&T, while Raymond and I went to F&N, so the team still lack of few players. I donno how Yao Jie got the remaining players, but the keeper is sure good! He caught a fast header from the corner, directly to his chest and caught between his arms! WOW!!! The final score is 7-2, our team got 7 (Yay!) It's a good start, still gotta improve on our skills, to prepare for our matches after our 'O's...haha...LOL

F&N Coursework

Oh my god!! It's going to be cooking tomorrow, and i'm scared of cooking. I had to choose 3 dishes and 1 drink to prepare for my 'O' levels. Tomorrow will be a scary day, and I am now currently tryin to finsh my coursework part B, it's kinda hard...I scared...I scared the food that I will be preparing taste sux when it comes out, what am I going to do? Well, gotta face the truth, 'O' levels coming soon, if I dont work hard, I wonder what m i supposed to do, so work hard, stay focus on my cooking tomorrow and hope for the best...blah blah blah...LOL

Chinese over

Well...Chinese 'O' levels is over, but I still need to cop with six more subjects: English (my weakness), Maths (still can cope), Science (gotta buck up), Combine Humanities (really tryin) and Geography (tryin too)...Really afraid of my english...or should I say all of them...

Now I'm having holidays...but we still need to go back to school, well it's for our own good isn't it? It's seems like I have missed two lessons of sciences, cause I'm sick!! Man...Why must I get sick at these times? I really need to buck up on my sciences...

说真的, 中四真的很难熬, 但只要有恒心, 我相信我们一定可以及格的...加油!!! KAMPATEI NE!!!!

The reality

Man, just got back my own report book. I actually failed 4 out of 7 subjects! Man, how I am I going to survive with grades like this? Unless I stop playin now and start studying now...or else...but of course, talk is cheap...I must do it with actions...and push myself to exceed my own limit to get to the courses I want in poly...or else, I can't go anywhere with this kind of results. So, better start preparing for my chinese'O' Levels before I start to concentrate on other subjects. I really feel like dropping Geography, I still can't score well in my humanities subjects...

Chinese 'O' Levels

Man...It's going to be chinese 'O's soon...I mean it's so quick, I'm playin and it's like it's just a sudden blink of an eye...It's too fast...I juz wonder if I can take it...Hope I can get an A1 for this chinese paper, and of course and B3 for the rest of the subjects. All I have to do is to control myself playing too much com and start to concentrate before the June holidays, man, god bless...I know Jesus the lord will be at my side always, whatever I do and wherever I go...everywhere...