Nice Food...

Got to blog about yesterday, yesterday, due to this week is an exam week, most of the people in my cg went back to study, so it was like left me...so I went to join W116 for fellowship.

We went to Vic's house for lunch, her mum cooked prawn noodles, and it was like so....DELICIOUS!!!! Seriously, I'm not joking, it's true, whether is it the soup or the dry one, it's just so tasty..haha...

Furthermore, Vic's dog is like SO SO SO CUTE... too bad I don't have the pic, but Gary has it, I'll take from him someday...

After dinner, Shifu, Ben, Chong, Vic and I sat down at the living room to fellowship, we chit chat about craps and stuffs...haha, was fun though...seriously, I just had a thought, when can our cg really be like this, that everyone would really come sit around, chit chat and stuff, get to know each other better, I mean, it's fun talking with them, but I really hope the next time same thing like this can happen to my cg...BURDEN!!

Anyway, I just love my guitar...haha

What happened for the past few days or weeks or...whatever

Well well, I know I have not been blogging for like, erm...9 days... Haha... Rachel asked me to update also, haha..

Well, last Saturday, celebrated our beloved cgl's birthday!! We had so much fun at De Coder's Cafe, and of course, thanks to the blessings from Elaine and their Da Jie(don't know her name... :P) :) Xiu Wen was so so so blessed...haha, I think my 21st birthday will be at NS...sigh... :(

Well, Sunday, Pastor Kong preached a good message too. :) The power and importance of speaking in tongues.

Monday to Wednesday was...erm, was quite ok though, Tuesday had finished my last day of job at Coffee Bean. Wednesday, after bs, Vic sent Shifu, Ben and me to JE, thanks for driving us there for the past 2 weeks Vic!! :)

After that, went to Ben's house, had a little chat, although didn't have the time to really play games like we used to...hmm, but, soon...haha.

Thursday, I'm so blessed!!!! Mum brought me to buy guitar!! Yeah, I finally have my own guitar, and I can start practicing!! Mum also blessed me with 2 shirts!! Shall share it as a testimony later. :)

Friday...Shall update soon...

PS: Updated during class...I know you guys will be wondering, 'Huh?! Update in class?' Well, the lecturer is boring...Maths Lesson, how do you expect me to listen properly when the lecturer's tone is so monotonous??... Anyway, shall update the pictures during Xiu Wen's birthday and my own guitar and shirts soon. :)

Random post again...

3 more days...

Xiu Wen's bday coming soon...

Heehee... :P

Tired...ahh

Just finished bathing after coming back from work...Man, I'm so tired...haha, at least today was the second last day I'll be working in coffee bean...haha...

I'm so unlucky today, being scalded by a metal board which below it was a heater...and somemore I clamped my hand at the cake fridge while I was trying to close the sliding door, and now my thumb still hurts...ouch...

There's an incident which happens on Sunday which I had forgetten to talk about it...I saw a couple quarreling outside church that day.

It was very dramatic...Wen Shun, Kenny, Wei Siong, Jarrett, Rachel and I should know how dramatic it is...

Today, while I was on my work, I saw a weird person on the train...keeps on doing hand signs and actions to the air, and keeps scanning the passengers that walks in...as if he's some sort of police or something...

Somehow he just gives me one feeling...

Eerie.....

Haha...had so sore eyes this morning, and serious flu, and it's just so unbearable when I was walking...can you imagine, when working halfway, you have to visit the toilet just to sneeze? and it was like, 4 times?? Arrgh...

Second week of school

Today was the first day of second week of life in SP...need to start adjust to get use to schooling life again... Seriously, I think my class, not bad... haha, because I'm able to talk a lot of crap...haha, especially with Stanly. Lol, and today we were like laughing non-stop for the 2 hour break...

Today, CD lesson, the lecturer was speaking SPCORE values... I felt so sleepy... I think Kenny, Chong and Raymond would know what I meant...Haha

Speaking of Kenny, I saw him at FC 4 today, haha, last Thursday I saw him at the bridge connecting the school and the MRT station...haha.

Yesterday's service, Sidney Mohede came to lead praise and worship. Man, it was great!! Pastor Kong also preached a good message. :)

After service, Kenny, Wen Shun, Jarrett, Wei Siong and I went to Subway to have our lunch...so bored, but at least we talked some jokes and stuffs, haha, at least won't be so bored.

Ok, I shall stop here, I'm going to play games. :P

Start of school...

Finally, I started school 2 days ago... IT-Infomation Technology

Although in a sense, this course is fun, but all those computing codes are just gonna kill me...I mean, it's so complicated...but never mind, I'll persevere, I'll go learn...for the sake of my future...hahahahaha

Hmm, actually I also don't know what to blog about, just anyhow blog anything..haha

This pic is taken with Nikki Fletcher, a worship leader from an Australian church, CCC. Anyway, Pastor Tan's message was great last sun!!

Long day...

Hmm, sat went for cgc training, really wasn't expecting much in the beginning, but who knows, at near the end was the best...

After Dave finished preaching the word, the whole room just starts to get into a time of worship, this is when the presence of God starts to come... When singing one of the songs, I forgot the name of it, I knelt down, tears just flow down.

A sudden thought just came into my mind, 'Lord, I'm so unworthy of Your love and all that You've done for me.' After this thought, I felt that someone is telling me something. 'It's ok, even if you are faithless at times, I will always remain faithful.' and other stuffs...ahhhh, only one word to describe the whole presence and atmosphere.

Awesome. :)

After the whole session, a lot of us gathered together to share our thoughts and views, E448, W116 and W143 all gathered together, and we prayed in the end. :)

E448 had to leave as they had to go for service, Ng and Ben went elsewhere, so left May, Gary, Wei Siong and me, we were talking with Xiu Wen also. Haha. She asked me to show her play drums, but I didn't bring my 'chopsticks' (literally drum sticks...) out, so, I used pen, haha, played for VERY short while, then stop, as Dave need to do some announcements and stuffs, so in the end, I stopped...haha, well, maybe next time. :D

Gary and May went to buy some stuffs for cg refreshments, so Wei Siong and I went to Xiu Wen's Da Jie's house to help clear the place. Around 4 plus went to meet up Rachel and Nicholas. Kind of shocked that Nicholas would actually come for cg, as that time he said he doesn't want to come...haha, anyway, get to know Rachel better. Good start from my own problems, hmm, next, to really got to talk more to rest of the people in the cg.

Today wasn't very good, the cgm was not very good... At the end, all cgcs were asked into the room and we received discipleship...hmm, first time I receive so hard discipleship...abit not used to it...but only through such things we will grow...and at least I don't have those thoughts of rebellion and pride in my heart... Today sharing testimony, used a wrong word...so sorry Xiu Wen, I'll take note of that next time...

Went to the pasar malam at boon lay, May and Nicholas went to buy some stuffs to eat. Wei Siong saw Wen Shun at the interchange, then we had a short chat before we went off. Man, my eyelids just now was like very heavy...keep on closing, and somemore on the train to cck, I just fall towards my left, which was a stranger, ahhh.... I was so embarrassed, I apologised to that person, and say bye to Wei Siong and walked out of the train...

After blogging maybe I'll be sleeping soon....yawn...so tired...

Bad timing

What a bad timing to have 2 faulty stuffs...

My PSP, realised the battery was spoilt on wednesday, which means for the time being, I can't bring out to play for the time being, unless I go buy another battery...sigh...

Next, today, I went to SP to go self-cert my laptop, and guess what, as my laptop is lenovo, some stuffs in it is just came with the com, so if I went to self-cert, it means that the programs inside will be gone totally, and in the end, my sound was gone too as it was also part of the program!! Oh my God!! Now I have to download everything from the web and have to reinstall EVERYTHING!!! Man... I wonder when it'll be done...the downloading percentage and memory moves so slowly......

What are friends. (random post)

I just really want to thank God for Ben and Xiu Wen.

Ben, can really share alot of things with me, sometimes when I have problems, he can just share until I can link myself with the correct answer that I'm actually looking for. He really is good at sharing. :)

Xiu Wen, she's really a good leader. So blessed to have her as my leader. :) She immediately smsed me and asked me whether I'm ok when she knew that I shared some personal stuffs with Shifu and Ben. Even though Xiu Wen is like already busy with her SOT and her NTU exams, but yet she chose to be worried me. I gave her my word that I'll work things out and hang on, and told her not to worry about me. Really thank you. :)

Xiu Wen and Ben, so blessed to know them. :)

Flag Day...

Today, went to orchard to do my flag day, to do the module of poly...so lame...

Well, at least I made some friends in my class today. :)

Arrgh, flag day, those people that say 'no' to me, I think these people are way much better than those that ignored you.

MAN, I JUST HATE THE FEELING OF BEING TREATED AS AN INVISIBLE PERSON OR BEING WHEN I'M ACTUALLY NOT!! GET WHAT I MEAN?

Well, 'earned' $44.20, haha, I was kind of like second in the class so far. Lol...

Tomorrow got to go to poly to do the stupid self cert thing...bored, luckily got Raymond accompany me go, at least got someone to talk to..haha.

Grrr...

Great...I've been looking forward for my very own card, but I received a letter from XXX Company...

It's been denied...great...

*Poof*

There goes my dream of having my own guitar...

Stupid XXX Company...

Hmmm...

Pastor Tan preached a great message yesterday!! I was so impacted!! Especially the sleeping time..ahaha.. Ok, everyone thinks that sleeping 8 hrs is the exact time to maintain your good health right, let me tell you now. You are wrong. The exact time supposedly should be 6 and a half hours of sleep!!! Which means, you sleep less, you'll increase the chances of your death, you sleep too much, you'll also increase the chances of your death...

I can't believe I overslept yesterday!!! Xiu Wen called me at 1220, and I woke up at that time.........

Arrgh, I had to cabbed down...my money just flew away again...reached there bout 1250, whew! Thank God!!

Actually, nothing much to share, but one thing I just want to say, I can't take it anymore...

I'm just starting to feel that I'm not close to my cell group members anymore...seriously...not anymore...not as close I felt last year...not anymore...

Does the problem lies with me? Or does it...

I don't know...can someone help me??

Prayer CG

Yesterday's prayer cg was good. Even though there were only seven of us, Xiu Wen, Gary, Jarrett, Hui Tong, May, Kathryn and me. There's really the presence of God among us, indeed, when 2 or 3 are gathered, there He is in the midst of us.

Gary has rose up as a cgc yesterday. So, a few changes have been made about the groupings, Rachel and Junko will no longer be under me, it will be under Gary, since it was him that brought them in, and Markus will be placed under me...hmm, a little challenging, since I don't even know him and hardly talk to him, since he isn't a regular...

I was shocked about how much I left to give for the building fund!! Initially I thought it was a larger amount, but by the grace of God, what was left is surely enough for me to fulfill!! As long as I get my pay!!

Sigh, 2 problems now for me to to ponder now...I'm currently lacking in money...and also Xiu Wen asked me to quickly decide a ministry to join...erm, I'm still not really sure yet, because ministry needs greater commitment, so 2 choices, usher, which I hope I can serve on sunday and that's it...or like what Ben asked me to go, children church, which falls on the saturday...hmm... I don't know...

Anyway, yesterday, Gary, May, Xiu Wen and me went to eat dinner, due to me lack of money, I never eat, but Xiu Wen offered to share Yong Tau Fu with me, first, her mum has cooked, second, to fill back the half of my Yong Tau Fu which was taken away last sun...so this is to 'cover' back the lost one...hahaha, thanks Xiu Wen!! :)

Anyway, Ben shared something with me on wednesday. Ok, let me ask you something, go think about it. Your walk with God, do you build it on ministry? Or fellowship? Praise and worship? Titles and ranks? Or is it Jesus? Go think about it, it should at least inspire you to walk the correct path with God.

Ahhhhh...

Sun, was great fellowshipping, jamming to be precise. Haha. Ben have not send me the photos yet, so, I'll post it when I receive it. Great jamming, but still needs improvement and coordination. :)

Hmm, Mon went to celebrate Hui Tong's birthday, was supposed to meet 430...and I woke up at 445...arrgh...I can't believe it... Reached there about 545, and I was there to eat cakes...haha. Went to look for Raymond and Nick when I went home.

So bored...have to work on next day...

I don't know what's gotten over me...

Saturday went to Riverwalk to attend this newcomers' tea stuff. In the end went to help out as a usher at the last minute. Haha, I get the taste how an usher feels like. Hmm, ok, not bad, maybe can consider, but maybe Xiu Wen won't allow...haha...

After everything, all of us went to Central© foodcourt to have our...hmm, I wonder that's lunch or dinner...anyway, that's not the point. In fact, the frustrating part is that my Yong Tau Fu, I ate halfway, went to buy drink, and I came back with the cleaner cleaning my bowl away, and half of the bowl just poof, gone like that...my food...the rest of them were supposed to go to hotel to celebrate Vic's birthday, it's a surprise meal specially planned to celebrate for her.

Hmm, this is where the problem starts, I just don't know why, after everyone's gone, I just feel so bored, lonely...arrgh...maybe because my nature can't stands boredom, well, I don't know...Funny thing is this, I went to City Hall to meet my mum, I went to the toilet at City Hall, planning to walk back to City Hall MRT station, I was like looking at the floor along the way, in my mind I was thinking wonder will I meet anyone of them here. Who knows, when I lift my head up, I saw Xiu Wen and Elaine!! Then I saw the rest of the people, Ben dragged me along to walk with them, well, thinking that I had nothing to do, I just followed them.

Arrgh, seems like I'm always got to be going through boredom and loneliness... why? why? Man, when is the time that I'm able to break free from this curse? when? when? God, can You tell me when? Can You help me? Can You lead me out from this? God, I need You...

Hope jamming on sunday will be able to bring me back. Anyway, I'm much better now in a sense, luckily emotionally stuffs I'm able to heal quite fast...

I'm starting to fall...

Till now, I'm just still wondering and asking, 'God, is this really what You want me to do?' The responsibilities of a cgc, I'm still learning to take it, and I'm still learning, but one thing, especially forecast of attendance, if I can't get the exact numbers and the accurate forecast, I'll just get something. But, sometimes, can't really blame them also, sometimes it's just me not asking them properly, when can I just start to ask them the correct questions, do the correct stuffs, give the correct answers? When? When? I'm just still seeking... Sometimes have thoughts of giving up, but, no way, I shall persevere, like what Jesus said, 'not my will, but Yours be done.'

Amen.

Back from chalet...

Actually I was planning on blogging this on the afternoon, but, the com has problems, and so I went to my room to lie down for awhile, but in the end, I fell asleep, guess I was too tired...

Hmm, I did made quite a lot of new friends in this camp...haha, Wei Siong, Desmond, Chee Wai, Cheryl, Roscelle, Hai Kiat, Kelvin, Samuel, Aaron, Joycelyn, Isabelle and etc... arrgh, can't really name all... haha. It's was fun though, the games really bonded everyone together, get to know each other better. During the night time, people who stayed, had a great time fellowshipping, had fun, games, and of course... FOOD!!!! Hahaha.. I think the game that was fun was the blind cat and the reverse of hide-and-seek...had so much fun. This guy, Alvan, a guitarist/bassist, man, he's good! I think have the same standard as Yong Jing!! Haha.

Around 5 plus, a group of us went to watch sunrise. Guess what?

We actually sat at the wrong side...which means...the sun was rising up at the back of where we are facing!! -_- Never mind, next time then... here are some pics that I took though, even though not very nice...haha

All of us went to Mac to eat when we left, and finally, I'm able to clear my craving of Big Breakfast. Wahaha, and Cheryl's able to clear her craving for Mcflurry. Lol.

Well, I shall stop here... tired...

Easter Weekend.

One thing I just want to comment about first is the CHC Drama Team.

They never fail us at all. Why?

Because there's always something that's memorable in each and every single drama. For example, last year's Easter drama, was a rap from the song called 'Tokyo Drift', this year, they took a song from a movie '881', and there's this song, "zi lang zi bua, gam qing buey sua...' and stuff, haha, it's just so funny...

At expo, the drama was even better, it's about an invention called 'i-Ming', which can let you view your memories, and can also travel back in time. I mean, this is so cool... Anyway, all I can say that those that I've invited you for Easter this year, you didn't even want to come, it's your loss...haha!!

Went for 4 services for the past 2 days, Xiu Wen asked me to take a rest at home, because I've attended 4, and it's like more than enough...but I think if there's a need, then I'll go for Sunday's service...

On Friday, served at JAMs Church, was great, recharged spiritually...and I knocked my head against an unknown-metal-quite-sharp object, luckily I did not bleed, but it's like swollen on my head, and now it's still pain... Went for service after serving, went for 2, didn't have the chance to eat dinner, even though I like only eat 2 biscuits in the afternoon before I rushed out, never mind, for God I press on!!! We then waited for Xiu Wen and Elaine at the coffeeshop, together with Jarrett, Wei Siong, May, and Wen Shun!! Reached home about 12... *yawn*

On Saturday, went for the expo service, saw Elaine, Shifu and Wei Liang at JE, met up with Kenny, Nicholas and Wei Huang (hope I spelt correctly) at JE, and supposed to meet Daniel, Shi Ting and another girl (I don't know how to spell her name) on the last cabin of the train, but in the end we don't even know where they are, so we can only meet them up at Tanah Merah. Upon reaching Expo, we then realised that we board the same train with Xiu Wen, only thing was she was at the front, and we were at the back. We ate before we went to queue up, the hall was packed very fast! After 1st service ended, some had to leave, the others stayed, and we encountered a problem, all 3 cg, Elaine, Xiu Wen and Serene cg all facing seats crisis, some people just came and put their stuffs over our seats...well, never mind...Kathryn and Yingli brought 2 friends along, Wei Siong attended the 530 service because he was too tired. The second service was like awesome! In the beginning, I didn't really expect much, but who knows, when Pastor Kong begin to lead us in a old song that they used to sing during Easter, I was touched by God, and I just cried. Felt so recharged and good to be renewed by God once again. Something not very good happened after service, but luckily it was solved quickly...Had lots of fun on the train, ah, brings back the memories of the journey back home when we were still attending expo services. Ate at the Jurong Entertainment Centre, when leaving, those leaving at Boon Lay went off 1st, left Kenny, the rest, Wei Siong, Nicholas, and me accompanied May to wait for her father to come and fetch her, not very good for a girl to wait alone down there, so we all accompanied her, and just like chit chat for awhile. After that all of us went off. I don't really know what happened to Daniel though... I feel tired... *yawns*

Anyway, I'm officially 1 year old in Christ on Friday!!! Yipeee!!!

Starting to get used to my work...

After the second day working at coffee bean, I'm starting to get A LITTLE used to the speed of everything and how to handle during peak hours and stuff. Hope to really get used to it soon...

Anyway, I forgot to add an ingredient to one of the drink... I hope the customer can't taste the difference...

Yesterday, Ben and I worked on the same day, so we went backed together. Shared alot along the way, we even sat on the stairs of the LRT station to talk...

He shared some of his testimonies, which really impacted me alot, and also stirred the fire in me again...anyway, I'm still learning how to be a cgc, but seems like I'm helpless in almost everything...

Ben said that I grow faster than him, in less than a year I've been promoted as a helper, but, even if I grow fast, I don't have enough experiences to really cover for what is needed, sometimes I just feel so helpless...

For example, basic things like encouraging members... I can't even bring myself to talk to them... I'm just wondering, when can I really throw away this thing call low self esteem? Arrgh...what am I suppposed to do? God, guide me through...

After talking with Ben, I feel the burden of reaching out to the lost again, the burden is much more stronger now. I'll try my best to really reach out for Easter...

One more thing, servanthood. All I have to do is to really apply this, and those things that I have learnt in Church, I should have no problems in handling my work and the people around there...

First day at work

Hmm, finally started working at coffee bean, a little havoc and rush to be true. Why?

Especially during luch hours and dinner hours, it's like so so so rush, everthing must be fast, the drinks, food, service and stuff... Furthermore, I just finished my training not long ago, and I still need sometime to really go memorise the steps and the ingredients of all the drinks...today started only in ice-blended station, but there's 16 DRINKS FOR ME TO REMEMBER!!! Never mind, slowly...these things need to practiced over and over again...I'll find a day to really go memorise the steps and the ingredients of all the ice blended drinks before I move to the hot drinks station...

I think I really need to get used to the speed of the work and stuffs, and also the fussy customers...today I already met one, he's not fussy, but a little...hmm, how should I put it... proud? arrogant? act big? I don't know, roughly the meanings that move around the three types that I have mentioned...

I also really got to start to plan my time properly, like for the upcoming bs classes, for my cgm, and when school starts I also have to take note of my schedule...arrgh... alot of things to take note of...until now I'm still a little regretting working, if not for money...sigh...