YOUTH CAMP!!!!!!

I'm back from youth camp~!!! I can't believe it, 3 days, it just went so fast, I just can't get enough of it, and the times where I can really experience encounters with God again! Furthermore, I just finished my 'dinner', because I just dozed off at around 5 and I woke up at 1237 at midnight...wow...from the day before the first day of camp, I slept 2 hours, first day, 2 hours, second day 3 hours, altogether I'd only slept for 7 hours in 3 days?! My God, I really want to thank God for His strength upon all of us even though we were so tired. Anyway, I just want to say something about the camp: Tired...but fun! Amazing! Awesome! Great! Wonderful! Fantastic! ... ... Ok, my vocab wasn't very good though, these are the words I can think of for now, but I think you know how much I really enjoyed myself in this camp now right...haha. So now, I just want to type about what happened bout me during this 3 day camp, it's gonna be long...haha.

Day 1: Reported at PHS at 830am...initially was supposed to report at 8am, but something happened, which is a testimony though. 630am, I was done with everything, but, I was looking for my specs...I seem to have misplaced it somewhere, I started to panic, I just went around my whole house looking for it, but I just can't seem to find it anywhere...7am, I went into my room and started praying to God about helping me to look for my specs. After I finished praying, Jermain smsed me, he asked all the sound crew members to print out the schedule of the duties we are supposed to do in camp, well, thank God for that, I'm able to print for Wei Siong and Sheng Hong also, but the main thing that's so amazing was that, I found my specs was actually at my desktop printer! Camouflaging with my earpiece! Really want to thank God for that, the sms came so timely, and thank God, I'm able to finish the printing and everything fast enough and rushed out immediately, and I'm actually supposed to meet Kenny at CCK, but due to this, I missed meeting up with him, but it's sort of worth it though..haha..

Reached PHS, it was drizzling, I start to walk fast, and thank God, not long after I settled down, it start to rain heavily...but through the prayers of the leaders, the rain stopped. Praise God! I just can't seem to settle down..haha, I'm just so so excited about this camp, be it whether is it doing my job as a mentor or a sound crew member, I'm just running about everywhere I go...Wei Siong can testify for that...haha... Well, I didn't really get to fellowship with the rest of my cg members other than Wei Siong, and occasionally, with Gary, Wen Shun and Kenny. Moving the speakers, sound console, mics and wires up and down all the way from the seminar room to parade square to hall and back to seminar room again and... well, if you are involved in the camp, you would actually see the sound crew members running like mad in between sessions...haha. During telematch, helped JJ and his team about the game at his station, peeling garlics and onions, squeezing lime juice into the basin of water...haha, it was fun! Anyway, Leslie and I skipped a meal...AHHHH...Haha, it's worth it, because I'm serving God at that time! Erm...looking after the sound console...hahahaha...

After games, the campers have half an hour to wash up, leaders and sound crew members all went up to the seminar room again for a screening of the video 'Indescribable'. THIS VIDEO IS JUST SIMPLY AMAZING. I can't stop thinking about what the preacher in this video has shared and the pictures that he has showned. This is one of it.

This is a picture I got from wikipedia, this is actually about the centre core of the black hole from the whirlpool galaxy in the universe, 31 million light years away and this pic is actually taken by the hubble telescope. Look at this, right now, all I know that my Lord and Saviour Jesus is real! I'M JUST SO IMPACTED BY THIS VIDEO!!!!!!

After the screening, we were moving all the equipments back to hall again for the session missions night, I forgot about one of the sessions...STM... Anyway, the game 'Left Behind', it's just amazing, the games team really did a great job about this. *Clap Clap* Wei Siong and I went to off the lights to stir the atmosphere up. It was seriously very good. The end of the video actually shows about rapture coming, which happens during the second coming of Christ, all who are righteous in the Lord shall all be sent directly up to heaven to meet with the Lord, leaving a group of people here on Earth who will go through trials and tribulations from the anti-christ before going up to heaven. It shows that a preacher is in the church preaching to the whole congregation, then suddenly, thunder strike and the bible the preacher is holding just dropped onto the floor with a loud bang, and 98% of the people in the church were gone, leaving only about less than 18 people looking shocked, and despair, at the end it show a guy covering his face with both his hands and kneeling on the ground. The video then show the 10 commandments of this game, then it shows this sentence "Prepare for Hell", "Mentors take over now"...When groups of 5 began to went out of the seminar room, we can hear screamings from the outside. When it was our turn, Rachel, Hui Tong, Jarrett, Wei Siong and me were in a group. Ok, it got me in one room, where it shows that we left our friends and families back down here on Earth to suffer, and it was already too late to bring them up to heaven, and their hearts were all filled with hatred towards us. This actually makes me feel even more burden for my family and my friends, even more wanting to bring them to Christ, because I really don't want to see them being tortured, especially my beloved family... Anyway, the golden rule of the game, 'Keep silent at all times'...

We then all gathered back at the seminar room, to share and stuff, Pastor then started sharing the power of the cross, we then started praying, people started to manifest, we all lingered in the presence of God for very long, started at around 11 plus, we didn't even know that it was already 1 plus am in the morning, wow, time really passes very fast when we are in the presence of God. Wei Siong saw the light of God, and I felt a touch on my shoulder from God, it's just like a pat on the back of encouragement, felt so good.. All of us then proceed to bathe and stuff, the group of us, Gary, Kenny, Wen Shun, Jarrett, Wei Siong and me slept quite late...

Day 2: Wei Siong and I woke up at 7...ahh, we thought we were going to be late, but who knows, when we went to the toilet to brush our teeth and do some wash-up, we saw Jermain in the toilet...seems like he just woke up...haha, can't blame him also, he has more things to do compared to us...well, thank God we were still able to set up everything right on time for the morning PT. Whew! We then went to have our breakfast before proceeding up to seminar room for morning devotion. Well, I know this is very ironic, we were supposed to do our own prayer, but Wei Siong and I fell asleep...but ironically, I can still hear the music playing while sleeping...Wei Siong says this is the peace of God, God wants us to take some rest...ahh, I don't know...hahaha...

After that, the whole camp were then split into to 3 teams, men, women and mentors, initially I'm not sure whether am I supposed to be in the mentors team, but then Sheng Hong needs people to be at the men's room, so Wei Siong and I just went there...I just felt so tired...kept dozing off...ahhhhh... Dev was preaching about manhood, and I actually learnt something from there..wonder what Pastor shared with the mentors...hmm...

We then went down to have our lunch, some incident happened down here, there were not enough food, but from here, I really see the spirit of excellence and see how the leaders really react quickly to situations like this. Brother Kee Liang actually went out, took $150 and went to the nearest hawker centre to buy food for the whole camp, and the leaders actually were the last to eat, some didn't eat at all, and the some mentors actually sacrificed to let the team eat first before they eat, which mades me feel a little guilty, because I went down to eat...haha...

Ahh, I forgot what happened after lunch...STM...We then had our 1st evangelistic meeting in the camp for the secondary school students, we had a drama done by our leaders and some staffs. Mayce even got injured for the drama...big sacrifice!

Well, anyway, we watched the video of the 'How Great Is Our God" tour part 2 during the evangelistic meeting for the tertiary students. This is even more impacting. In the milky way galaxy, there were so many stars that were actually few million, billion, thrillion and quadrillion times bigger than the size of Earth. After he shared about the stars, he then shared about a protein in our body. Pastor Tan had also shared this before, just that I forgot the name of it... The name of the protein is called laminin. It actually holds our whole body together. This is the picture of laminin.

Can you believe it? This protein in our body is actually in a shape of the cross of Jesus! And this actually holds our whole body together! Read this verse from Colossians 1:16-17(NIV). "For by him all things were created: things in heaven and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or powers or rulers or authorities; all things were created by him and for him. He is before all things, and in him all things hold together." I'm totally so impacted after watching this 2 videos. I'm just so speechless. God is just so awesome. After the meeting, sound crew stayed behind to do the keeping of the equipments, then Wei Siong went down first, and I stayed behind for the briefing for mentors with Pastor CK, had fun too. I then went down to have my dinner. Pineapple rice from the buffet!! Lol! It was nice, yummy! I then start to fellowship with my members, we even played a lot of games. We played animal kingdom at the canteen, we then went to play basketball with 2 other person that we don't know. After that, we went to bathe. Xiu Wen then opened a door for us to like fellowship inside. Xiu Wen is also sacrificing a lot, she did not sleep just to finish reading the book for her SOT, she can't even sing properly due to lack of sleep, and she even had gastric...Dear Lord, I just pray the You will give her strength to carry on to do her assignments, I also pray for healing upon her so that her gastric will be healed. Amen.

Slept at 4 plus in the morning. Really getting tired...

Day 3: Was actually supposed to wake up at 650am, but all of us were just so tired, we actually woke up at 740am in the morning, totally missed the morning PT. May called some of us, but we didn't heard our phone ringing...*yawn*

After washing up, Wei Siong and I immediately went to seminar room to help out. A while later, Jermain came up with packets of food in his hands. He brought food up for us! Thanks a lot! Even though it's just a packet of bee hoon, it's filling enough for our stomach. Started to set up everything and morning devotion starts. Pastor was sharing with us something, but the spirit is willing, the flesh is weak, I just keep dozing off...arrgh...then, at one point of time, I saw many people walking up, I was wondering what are they going up for, I saw Leslie up there, Chun Li and Sherrill up there also, so I roughly guessed that all the mentors are going up, so I just went up there also. When I went up then I realise, Pastor wanted to lay hands on all of us. When it was my turn, all Pastor did was put his hands on my shoulders, and I just started trembling non-stop. When I fall, I'm still trembling. The power of God is indeed great. (actually while typing this, my hands are trembling again...don't know why...haha) When I stood up, Pastor challenged us to take a step of faith to go and pray for rest of the people in the room, believing that we also have the power to make other people fall under the power of God. Well, I went to prayed for Wei Siong, I just prayed for him by faith... And then I went to the other side and I went to catch Rachel, then I walk around to see whether is there other people that needs help or have not been prayed for, well seems like all are done...After that, we were told to get back to our rooms to do the final cleaning up. We then went to take our bags to put into a classroom before going back to seminar room for the final meeting. My cg even took pictures, but Kenny wasn't there...what a waste...

The whole camp then went to hall to take pictures, and the different houses also took pictures. Wei Siong, Gary, Jarrett, Leslie and I stayed back to help Sheng Hong and Jermain to help shift things to the van. Went back with the cg at around 3 plus. Anyway, thank God for His reminder of my pail still left in PHS, if not, my grandmother sure scold me...haha...

Anyway, the leaders really did a good job in planning this whole camp and making it so successful! *CLAP CLAP CLAP* And I'm glad that I learnt a lot of things in this camp, get to know more people and talk to them in this camp, people like Sheng Hong, Jermain, Dev, Guo Dong, Leslie...last but not least, my Father God!! For the encounters with Him and touched by Him. Heehee, Sheng Hong is a guitar pro, one more person for guitar consulting...haha..

Just now when I woke up, I was actually wondering why Pastor placed his hands on my shoulder, then I realised I sort of got injured while shifting the speakers and stuffs, and my shoulders were actually aching and hurting if I move too much, after thinking this, I tried to move my hands, no pain and aches anymore!!!! Praise the Lord!!

Well, it's really getting early now, I really need to sleep...*yawn~*

Unfruitfulness brings demotion...

Ok, I know the title sounds kind of serious though...anyway, just want to blog about this though...

Today after usher, saw Xiu Wen talking to Jarrett, Gary, Hui Tong, Wei Siong. I guess it was maybe about some cgcs thing, so I went in, and I went in and found out that all 5 of us had been demoted...ok, sounds kind of sudden to some people, but to me, it wasn't...I expected it...just didn't know that it would come so soon...

Actually, reflecting about myself, I seriously never done much, ever since I became a cgc, I didn't really do much to be honest. A few times is I really don't know how to handle certain stuffs, the rest is I never really help out, yes I do, but not much...not much......

Saying that after hearing this I'm not sad at all is seriously talking nonsense, of course I'm sad, I'm still a normal human right, humans do have feelings, if I feel nothing after this, I can go die...but, have to move on though, after all, not being a cgc doesn't mean that you can't serve God right? You can help out in ministry, help out in cg in various ways you can, do other things other than holding a title and do nothing much...I was actually thinking and reflecting upon myself when I was on the LRT, what are the things that I should have do but not done yet...And I also have this thinking... Anyway, I'm not beaten down so easily...I will stand up and move on...

Maybe I'm not really suitable to become a leader in any areas for the time being...either I screw up or other issues, or maybe I'm just suitable to be following in the lead of others after all...well, I don't know, time will tell, and God will lead me...

Went to cut my hair to super short yesterday, didn't really expect my cg members to say that I look good in this haircut...hmm, haha, I was just expecting them to say I got another haircut again...lol...

Ok, I just want to really do reflecting...I don't know what seriously went wrong with me and my life...am I really taking things for granted? or am I just not good enough...I really don't know...seems like there's intense spiritual warfare tonight...

Weird Dream

Ok, I slept till 2 plus just now...cos I slept at 6 plus in the morning...I was playing psp...lol...Well, that's not the point...

I had this weird dream during this long period of sleep...I dreamt that this friend of mine, jumped down a window from a building and died, and I was in the room with this person, watching this person just climbed out of the window and jumped, while I stood down there doing nothing to stop him... (Before I continue, my friends out there please don't be scared, I can assure you that the person I dreamt of is not one of you out there, but instead, I didn't even see this person before, but in my dreams I just seem to know this person...)

Ok, back, then I just peeped out of the window and I saw that person laid on the ground, motionless, with blood around him...and I just broke into despair... then, people come around and comfort me and then I woke up...

Well, this has led me into a thinking. People, treasure those that are around you, please don't take them for granted, at times other people may have done things for us and we are grateful to them, but when time goes by, we just take them for granted. Things should not go on like this, we never know what's going to happen the next day, so learn to love those that are around you, even your enemies!

Lol, when did I became so sentimental... :P

My time management needs to be better!

It seems like my time management is DECLINING... I'm late for last Sunday's service, bs, Saturday cgm at the church...sigh... Why... I really need better time management, and also need to re-think about everything...

Had my first usher training yesterday...I can't believe it, it's not because that I met these kind of person, and not because I've never met such kind of person before, well, it's just...

Sigh, forget it...I just can't believe there's such bossy and unreasonable people around...ducks...but, I'm amazed that I can already answer that person nicely and with a SMILE somemore...lol, and thanks Ng for helping me also! Anyway, because ushers can't really sit with their cg, I kind of miss them...lol. I happened to sit beside one lady while serving, and she said something to me which really encourages me. She said, 'Thanks for serving!' I mean, this may sound simple and meaningless to you, but to a person who is serving, this is really a form of encouragement, right.

Well, went to eat with Kenny, Wen Shun, May and Siyuan after the service, went to JP to eat LJS...lol, we then went to Marina Square, Kenny wants to buy his slippers, but there isn't the size that suits him, he's kind of sad though, Siyuan was supposed to be looking at her winter clothes, but we didn't look at any in the end...lol.

Pics taken yesterday

This are some of the pics taken yesterday, it's only three though, some are still with Jung Mun though, I'll get from him someday! lol!

Woo! The handsome Korean dude with me! Lol!

Making funny faces!!

Best pals 4eva!!

Jung Mun, we'll remember you!!

Last gathering with Jung Mun

Yesterday night, after bs, went to Lau Pa Sat to meet the rest to gather together with Jung Mun, they were eating there, I did not eat because I had bs...but the lesson was good also, just that I missed the first part of it because I fell asleep at home and I overslept...

We went to the side of the Singapore River, and we like celebrated a small farewell party for him. We took pictures with him, he look like a star!! Lol! He also sang us a song, a children song in Korean, which is about the 3 bears, and the other one is about him asking the rabbit where is he going if I never remember wrongly...haha

We like do alot of stupid stuffs...haha, just to like have a happy memory before Jung Mun returns to Korea, and one thing that kind of shocked me when I managed to do it. Ben and I alighted at JE, but I didn't expect that he'll actually went back into the train, which shocked me also, and thank God, I managed to jump back into the train, haha...See, being small-sized also has its own good points ok, see, jump into the train when the door is like so close to closing...lol, had an experience though...lol

Anyway, Jung Mun should be still on his way back while I'm blogging this...and due to my computer problem(I hate my laptop! Free ones are just so lousy!!), I signed in to MSN, and I saw Jung Mun adding me, but my whole computer hanged!!! I restarted the com, and when I re-log in, the window is gone!! I tried to use my memory to remember the email of his, and I tried to add, hope it's correct...

Arrgh, later got al lot of tests and mock test...arrgh, after vacation got major test...got to work even harder...

Meeting at YMCA

Initially this meeting was supposed to be at Riverwalk, but it was being changed to YMCA, I didn't ask the reason why...haha

Was a great meeting. Xiu Wen was finally back to lead P&W...haha. Pastor talked about 2 Chronicles, about how powerful fellowshipping is. We then talked about a lot of acronyms, about what we should do as mentors in the camp. Below are the points.

A.L.E.R.T.

C.O.D.E.R.E.D

P.R.O.

3Ps

From mentors to senior mentors we need time, trust, sharing and dialogue/communication.

We then talked about the schedules and stuffs about the camp. Brother Kenneth then briefed us about who is in charged of what...haha, Pastor also joked a lot, everyone was laughing. Lol.

After the meeting, the CGLs need to stay in the room for meeting, I was waiting for Xiu Wen though, and glad I did. Dorothea came out with her, which I didn't expect that, well, she has lessons though...haha. Anyway, went back on the MRT with Xiu Wen, was initially supposed to be talking to her, lol, even though she was doing the talking along the way, but really learn a lot. She really has high hopes on me, which of course, I don't want to disappoint her, I want to do my best for the Kingdom of God!!

Anyway, had quite a number of mock tests on Wed and Thurs, which I'm still not sleeping yet...lol, I don't like Java!! lol...

Compilation

Ok, just going to compile what happened on Saturday and Sunday...

Saturday, after I went back from Ben's house, changed and just prepare for his call to meet him up on the bus. We went to Peninsular Shopping Centre with Chong and Ng, as Chong and Ng wants to buy acoustic guitars. Sigh, we went to Davis and Maestro, ahhhh, I want an acoustic guitar!!! Lol...

We went to SMU basement to play guitars...but, we were being complained by the students there...We were too noisy, Ng says because our strumming are not synchronized, and our singing were sort of...hmm, too loud? I don't know...sigh... We then rush to pm, thank God we made it...haha, as we ran after 179 when we were at BL...

After pm, went to JP to eat at Subway with W116, and Ng treated me...thanks Bro!! :) Was quite tired though...

Sunday, was late for service, as I went to meet up Siyuan, was talking to her along the way, and sharing also. We reached there VERY late... Ok, Pastor Tan preached a very good message also, and he hold an altar call for those who wants or have a desire to be a leader in the future. Gary went up, Jarrett went up, I went up. Pastor Aries prayed for me, but this time round, maybe because of there's too many people, the moment we fall, in less than 3 mins, we were being called to stand up...

After debrief, the three of us were being asked to talk with Xiu Wen, which I also think what she say was quite true, if you truly want to be a leader, you'll have to show the desire and the enthusiasm that you really want to be one. The three of us were sort of hesitating and undecisive when we went up.

After that we went to JP to eat ourselves as Xiu Wen had to go meet pastor to discuss about the youth camp stuffs, and it was very long though... we had quite a good time fellowshipping there...
Went back home, was so tired anyway...

Later going to Riverwalk for meeting...

Year of Promotion

I'm seriously starting to think, this year shall be a year of promotion and breakthrough for me. I've joined usher, going to do more things in this time round youth camp. I seriously have a sense that God is going to use me in a special way for this time round's youth camp, although I still don't know what is it. Anyway, was happy that I went to all meetings, was kind of doing something more for this time's youth camp though, Pastor says the people that went to Thursday's meeting, camp experience will be difference from the rest, other than leaders though...haha.

Friday, went to make up cell at Elaine's cgm, due to me headache on Mon...anyway, was great though, really have the burden for W143 again, and was also fun, and also had a new creation for worship songs, I'll go on to that later. Went to meet up with Xiu Wen and Gary at JP, then we went to meet Elaine, Ben and Ng at BL ctrl station. The cg msg was great today. :) We took pics with Jung Mun, and thank Verona for the refreshments! :) After so long, never see Xiu Wen, kind of miss her though(I mean it!!!), and I also have a feeling that I'm more closer to Gary nowadays, after all the talkings. :) New step!!

While at the bus stop at NTU, Ben and I created a new trend, you know worship songs right, we made it so groovy and hip-hop!! Lol! He sings, I beat-box!! Haha, don't blame us though, we were just kind of high though...lol...

Anyway, I'm having free music behind me while I was blogging, Ben's playing guitar, going out tomorrow with them, before proceeding to pm. So going to have fun now! Lol...


Anyway, this is a pic Xiu Wen took for Gary and me....We were involved in an accident...We are in need of witnessess!! Help us...lol

The Power of God

Tuesday meeting...just one word to describe.

Awesome.

You know what, this was actually the first time that I actually fall under the power of God. Woo! The experience was great! I know some of you out there must be thinking, fall under the power of God only what...

Hey, it was great ok, somemore it's my first time experience this thing. About the meeting just now I also got something to say.

I can't get enough of God.

Seriously, when you are just in the presence of God, you seriously can't get enough. Right now, I'm seriously can't get enough of God...

Went to MRT station with Xuelin, Serene, Chun Li, Wei Siong. Saw Tina and Xuan Hong at the platform. Went back with Tina, Xuan Hong and Wei Siong from Outram Park, as the rest is taking towards Dhoby Ghaut that side...

I just love God so much!!!!

Counting down to Youth Camp--21 days...

2 fellowships I want to share...

Well, I know there's something bad going in on in my life, but I shall not say it here...cos I said it was about the 2 fellowships I want to share right...

First, was the fellowship with Wei Siong at CCK kopitiam at the bus interchange, haha, thank God that his friend can't make it to meet up with him, so I had the chance to eat and talk with him...haha. We had quite a chat though, and had fun. haha, and as for the contents of our conversation, hmm, shall not say out...haha, cos it's quite confidential. lol.

As for yesterday, hmm, went to hospital to visit Shifu, and well, I was so dumb, that I actually go the one big round route...-_-, well anyway, thank God that I reached there on time for the shuttle bus, with Qi Hui and Verona... reached there, the rest are already there, Shifu was so pale...even though the time we come was a bit better, but she still looks quite sick to me...got to pray for her also. The rest says it's due to inflammation at the appendix, so that's why she was admitted to the hospital...had quite a fellowship with W116. From that I got something, my cg is really for the time to change, our cg lacks love... Even Wei Liang, who's in tekong throwing grenades, called back to Ben the moment he received the message that Shifu was admitted to hospital. This sounds a little funny, but this is call true care and concern...

I can say that I myself is not perfect, I'm not doing enough, but that doesn't give us the reason not to do anything, I was just talking with Xiu Wen, I told her maybe it's because our cg are all teenagers, so there's still a certain level of maturity we are not there yet, and furthermore, teenagers nowadays tend to care more about themselves than the people around them...I just thought of this only, this is not part of my blogging...Cheryl is about the same age as me, if she can do it to care the people around her more than herself, why can't I do it...seriously, I think this is the willingness of the heart and the mind...hmm, repent repent...

After everything, went to Ben's house to stay for the night, and this time round, we didn't just go there to have fun. It was fruitful this time. Why?

We were able to have a guitar fellowship, learnt quite a number of songs, only thing need to improve on is the changing of chords, when Chong came, was blessed with roti prata!! We then went up to have another guitar fellowship again, then we worshipped the Lord, prayed, and everything felt better... went back to his room, as we had guitar fellowship at his balcony.

Went in to play wrestling, haha, Chong and I tagged to whack Ben, but in the end he won, because we can't really figure out the keys of the game...der...then Chong was tired, so he slept first, Ben and I continued with Winning till 6 in the morning, then we went to sleep. Woke up at 10 plus, played wrestling again, then we went down to have lunch and went home...

Just now was tired, so I fell asleep, and woke up, Xiu Wen was already online...oops...cos I planned to like chit chat with her through msn since she don't like to talk on phone...

Anyway, got to stop here, want to practice guitar again...haha..

The meeting at Riverwalk

Yesterday, went to Riverwalk for CGLs and CGCs meeting with the Pastor, the whole thing ended late than I expected though, but it was fun...haha.

Bought 3 char siew bao, ate one, the rest gave it to Jarrett because he was hungry...haha, bless him. Lol...

Vic left at 730, she got appointment though... After praise and worship, Pastor then began to share with us some stuffs, stirring the revival in offices, campuses and stuffs, I was stirred up though, but being stirred up there is no use, we got to really go back out there into the marketplace to do something once again before we can really make a difference... Pastor then began to ask who already has a prayer group in their own campuses or offices, quite a lot went up, which really makes me got to think back, it's really time for me to do something, be it it's with Kenny, or looking for some other people who is the same as me, to really meet up and pray, to pray for a revival, the salvation of our classmates and friends, from a prayer group become a bible study group, and then into a cell group and etc...

After everything, Jarrett and Gary briefed us, which I think that they are actually speaking the truth, it's just that our spirit-man is just not sensitive enough, eg, if a group of only 10 plus people, their praise and worship can be so way louder, why can't our cg do it?
It's really the time to think and do something, which is what Xiu Wen told us before, unless we go out and look at other people's cg, we'll never know how much we are praising and worshiping...

Around 10 plus, the briefing for the youth camp starts, JJ was taking down the information, he took my whole foolscap paper...haha, he said he'll copy one for me though, thanks ah..haha

Anyway, initially I was thinking of staying back to try and see what can I take down to let Xiu Wen know, since she can't be there due to her chicken pox, although I was tempted to go home, but, the rest of them went home, as some of them still has examinations like Gary, and I'm not trying to boast here, but even though I have lessons at 8am, if I don't make the choice to stay, no one will be able to help the cg to take down, but still got to thank Xuelin also, she offered to help me tell Xiu Wen about the stuffs she need to know, thank you Xuelin. :)

While brother Kee Liang was talking, I was initially thinking, will I be given a job to do at the camp, at first it was Cheryl's cg members, JJ and the other guy doing, but in the end I was involved in the stage crew team too...haha, yeah, at least I got something to do in the camp already...haha. I'm so looking forward to this camp...woohoo!!!!!

After discussing outside, we went back into the auditorium to discuss with Pastor CK, then we helped to arrange back the chairs, then halfway, we were told to go back, as it was really quite late for the students, so, Cheryl, JJ and I took 190 home. It was that time then I know that Cheryl lived quite near to me, very near...haha, no wonder last year a few times when I was going home, keep having this feeling that there's someone in the church that lives quite near me...haha...

Had a little chat with Cheryl while walking back, then she gave me a pick when I told her mine broke, and misplaced Ng's pick...haha, thanks again ah Cheryl! :P

Anyway, got to listen to lessons already. I'll blog soon. :D

Nice Food...

Got to blog about yesterday, yesterday, due to this week is an exam week, most of the people in my cg went back to study, so it was like left me...so I went to join W116 for fellowship.

We went to Vic's house for lunch, her mum cooked prawn noodles, and it was like so....DELICIOUS!!!! Seriously, I'm not joking, it's true, whether is it the soup or the dry one, it's just so tasty..haha...

Furthermore, Vic's dog is like SO SO SO CUTE... too bad I don't have the pic, but Gary has it, I'll take from him someday...

After dinner, Shifu, Ben, Chong, Vic and I sat down at the living room to fellowship, we chit chat about craps and stuffs...haha, was fun though...seriously, I just had a thought, when can our cg really be like this, that everyone would really come sit around, chit chat and stuff, get to know each other better, I mean, it's fun talking with them, but I really hope the next time same thing like this can happen to my cg...BURDEN!!

Anyway, I just love my guitar...haha

What happened for the past few days or weeks or...whatever

Well well, I know I have not been blogging for like, erm...9 days... Haha... Rachel asked me to update also, haha..

Well, last Saturday, celebrated our beloved cgl's birthday!! We had so much fun at De Coder's Cafe, and of course, thanks to the blessings from Elaine and their Da Jie(don't know her name... :P) :) Xiu Wen was so so so blessed...haha, I think my 21st birthday will be at NS...sigh... :(

Well, Sunday, Pastor Kong preached a good message too. :) The power and importance of speaking in tongues.

Monday to Wednesday was...erm, was quite ok though, Tuesday had finished my last day of job at Coffee Bean. Wednesday, after bs, Vic sent Shifu, Ben and me to JE, thanks for driving us there for the past 2 weeks Vic!! :)

After that, went to Ben's house, had a little chat, although didn't have the time to really play games like we used to...hmm, but, soon...haha.

Thursday, I'm so blessed!!!! Mum brought me to buy guitar!! Yeah, I finally have my own guitar, and I can start practicing!! Mum also blessed me with 2 shirts!! Shall share it as a testimony later. :)

Friday...Shall update soon...

PS: Updated during class...I know you guys will be wondering, 'Huh?! Update in class?' Well, the lecturer is boring...Maths Lesson, how do you expect me to listen properly when the lecturer's tone is so monotonous??... Anyway, shall update the pictures during Xiu Wen's birthday and my own guitar and shirts soon. :)

Random post again...

3 more days...

Xiu Wen's bday coming soon...

Heehee... :P

Tired...ahh

Just finished bathing after coming back from work...Man, I'm so tired...haha, at least today was the second last day I'll be working in coffee bean...haha...

I'm so unlucky today, being scalded by a metal board which below it was a heater...and somemore I clamped my hand at the cake fridge while I was trying to close the sliding door, and now my thumb still hurts...ouch...

There's an incident which happens on Sunday which I had forgetten to talk about it...I saw a couple quarreling outside church that day.

It was very dramatic...Wen Shun, Kenny, Wei Siong, Jarrett, Rachel and I should know how dramatic it is...

Today, while I was on my work, I saw a weird person on the train...keeps on doing hand signs and actions to the air, and keeps scanning the passengers that walks in...as if he's some sort of police or something...

Somehow he just gives me one feeling...

Eerie.....

Haha...had so sore eyes this morning, and serious flu, and it's just so unbearable when I was walking...can you imagine, when working halfway, you have to visit the toilet just to sneeze? and it was like, 4 times?? Arrgh...

Second week of school

Today was the first day of second week of life in SP...need to start adjust to get use to schooling life again... Seriously, I think my class, not bad... haha, because I'm able to talk a lot of crap...haha, especially with Stanly. Lol, and today we were like laughing non-stop for the 2 hour break...

Today, CD lesson, the lecturer was speaking SPCORE values... I felt so sleepy... I think Kenny, Chong and Raymond would know what I meant...Haha

Speaking of Kenny, I saw him at FC 4 today, haha, last Thursday I saw him at the bridge connecting the school and the MRT station...haha.

Yesterday's service, Sidney Mohede came to lead praise and worship. Man, it was great!! Pastor Kong also preached a good message. :)

After service, Kenny, Wen Shun, Jarrett, Wei Siong and I went to Subway to have our lunch...so bored, but at least we talked some jokes and stuffs, haha, at least won't be so bored.

Ok, I shall stop here, I'm going to play games. :P

Start of school...

Finally, I started school 2 days ago... IT-Infomation Technology

Although in a sense, this course is fun, but all those computing codes are just gonna kill me...I mean, it's so complicated...but never mind, I'll persevere, I'll go learn...for the sake of my future...hahahahaha

Hmm, actually I also don't know what to blog about, just anyhow blog anything..haha

This pic is taken with Nikki Fletcher, a worship leader from an Australian church, CCC. Anyway, Pastor Tan's message was great last sun!!

Long day...

Hmm, sat went for cgc training, really wasn't expecting much in the beginning, but who knows, at near the end was the best...

After Dave finished preaching the word, the whole room just starts to get into a time of worship, this is when the presence of God starts to come... When singing one of the songs, I forgot the name of it, I knelt down, tears just flow down.

A sudden thought just came into my mind, 'Lord, I'm so unworthy of Your love and all that You've done for me.' After this thought, I felt that someone is telling me something. 'It's ok, even if you are faithless at times, I will always remain faithful.' and other stuffs...ahhhh, only one word to describe the whole presence and atmosphere.

Awesome. :)

After the whole session, a lot of us gathered together to share our thoughts and views, E448, W116 and W143 all gathered together, and we prayed in the end. :)

E448 had to leave as they had to go for service, Ng and Ben went elsewhere, so left May, Gary, Wei Siong and me, we were talking with Xiu Wen also. Haha. She asked me to show her play drums, but I didn't bring my 'chopsticks' (literally drum sticks...) out, so, I used pen, haha, played for VERY short while, then stop, as Dave need to do some announcements and stuffs, so in the end, I stopped...haha, well, maybe next time. :D

Gary and May went to buy some stuffs for cg refreshments, so Wei Siong and I went to Xiu Wen's Da Jie's house to help clear the place. Around 4 plus went to meet up Rachel and Nicholas. Kind of shocked that Nicholas would actually come for cg, as that time he said he doesn't want to come...haha, anyway, get to know Rachel better. Good start from my own problems, hmm, next, to really got to talk more to rest of the people in the cg.

Today wasn't very good, the cgm was not very good... At the end, all cgcs were asked into the room and we received discipleship...hmm, first time I receive so hard discipleship...abit not used to it...but only through such things we will grow...and at least I don't have those thoughts of rebellion and pride in my heart... Today sharing testimony, used a wrong word...so sorry Xiu Wen, I'll take note of that next time...

Went to the pasar malam at boon lay, May and Nicholas went to buy some stuffs to eat. Wei Siong saw Wen Shun at the interchange, then we had a short chat before we went off. Man, my eyelids just now was like very heavy...keep on closing, and somemore on the train to cck, I just fall towards my left, which was a stranger, ahhh.... I was so embarrassed, I apologised to that person, and say bye to Wei Siong and walked out of the train...

After blogging maybe I'll be sleeping soon....yawn...so tired...

Bad timing

What a bad timing to have 2 faulty stuffs...

My PSP, realised the battery was spoilt on wednesday, which means for the time being, I can't bring out to play for the time being, unless I go buy another battery...sigh...

Next, today, I went to SP to go self-cert my laptop, and guess what, as my laptop is lenovo, some stuffs in it is just came with the com, so if I went to self-cert, it means that the programs inside will be gone totally, and in the end, my sound was gone too as it was also part of the program!! Oh my God!! Now I have to download everything from the web and have to reinstall EVERYTHING!!! Man... I wonder when it'll be done...the downloading percentage and memory moves so slowly......

What are friends. (random post)

I just really want to thank God for Ben and Xiu Wen.

Ben, can really share alot of things with me, sometimes when I have problems, he can just share until I can link myself with the correct answer that I'm actually looking for. He really is good at sharing. :)

Xiu Wen, she's really a good leader. So blessed to have her as my leader. :) She immediately smsed me and asked me whether I'm ok when she knew that I shared some personal stuffs with Shifu and Ben. Even though Xiu Wen is like already busy with her SOT and her NTU exams, but yet she chose to be worried me. I gave her my word that I'll work things out and hang on, and told her not to worry about me. Really thank you. :)

Xiu Wen and Ben, so blessed to know them. :)

Flag Day...

Today, went to orchard to do my flag day, to do the module of poly...so lame...

Well, at least I made some friends in my class today. :)

Arrgh, flag day, those people that say 'no' to me, I think these people are way much better than those that ignored you.

MAN, I JUST HATE THE FEELING OF BEING TREATED AS AN INVISIBLE PERSON OR BEING WHEN I'M ACTUALLY NOT!! GET WHAT I MEAN?

Well, 'earned' $44.20, haha, I was kind of like second in the class so far. Lol...

Tomorrow got to go to poly to do the stupid self cert thing...bored, luckily got Raymond accompany me go, at least got someone to talk to..haha.

Grrr...

Great...I've been looking forward for my very own card, but I received a letter from XXX Company...

It's been denied...great...

*Poof*

There goes my dream of having my own guitar...

Stupid XXX Company...

Hmmm...

Pastor Tan preached a great message yesterday!! I was so impacted!! Especially the sleeping time..ahaha.. Ok, everyone thinks that sleeping 8 hrs is the exact time to maintain your good health right, let me tell you now. You are wrong. The exact time supposedly should be 6 and a half hours of sleep!!! Which means, you sleep less, you'll increase the chances of your death, you sleep too much, you'll also increase the chances of your death...

I can't believe I overslept yesterday!!! Xiu Wen called me at 1220, and I woke up at that time.........

Arrgh, I had to cabbed down...my money just flew away again...reached there bout 1250, whew! Thank God!!

Actually, nothing much to share, but one thing I just want to say, I can't take it anymore...

I'm just starting to feel that I'm not close to my cell group members anymore...seriously...not anymore...not as close I felt last year...not anymore...

Does the problem lies with me? Or does it...

I don't know...can someone help me??

Prayer CG

Yesterday's prayer cg was good. Even though there were only seven of us, Xiu Wen, Gary, Jarrett, Hui Tong, May, Kathryn and me. There's really the presence of God among us, indeed, when 2 or 3 are gathered, there He is in the midst of us.

Gary has rose up as a cgc yesterday. So, a few changes have been made about the groupings, Rachel and Junko will no longer be under me, it will be under Gary, since it was him that brought them in, and Markus will be placed under me...hmm, a little challenging, since I don't even know him and hardly talk to him, since he isn't a regular...

I was shocked about how much I left to give for the building fund!! Initially I thought it was a larger amount, but by the grace of God, what was left is surely enough for me to fulfill!! As long as I get my pay!!

Sigh, 2 problems now for me to to ponder now...I'm currently lacking in money...and also Xiu Wen asked me to quickly decide a ministry to join...erm, I'm still not really sure yet, because ministry needs greater commitment, so 2 choices, usher, which I hope I can serve on sunday and that's it...or like what Ben asked me to go, children church, which falls on the saturday...hmm... I don't know...

Anyway, yesterday, Gary, May, Xiu Wen and me went to eat dinner, due to me lack of money, I never eat, but Xiu Wen offered to share Yong Tau Fu with me, first, her mum has cooked, second, to fill back the half of my Yong Tau Fu which was taken away last sun...so this is to 'cover' back the lost one...hahaha, thanks Xiu Wen!! :)

Anyway, Ben shared something with me on wednesday. Ok, let me ask you something, go think about it. Your walk with God, do you build it on ministry? Or fellowship? Praise and worship? Titles and ranks? Or is it Jesus? Go think about it, it should at least inspire you to walk the correct path with God.

Ahhhhh...

Sun, was great fellowshipping, jamming to be precise. Haha. Ben have not send me the photos yet, so, I'll post it when I receive it. Great jamming, but still needs improvement and coordination. :)

Hmm, Mon went to celebrate Hui Tong's birthday, was supposed to meet 430...and I woke up at 445...arrgh...I can't believe it... Reached there about 545, and I was there to eat cakes...haha. Went to look for Raymond and Nick when I went home.

So bored...have to work on next day...

I don't know what's gotten over me...

Saturday went to Riverwalk to attend this newcomers' tea stuff. In the end went to help out as a usher at the last minute. Haha, I get the taste how an usher feels like. Hmm, ok, not bad, maybe can consider, but maybe Xiu Wen won't allow...haha...

After everything, all of us went to Central© foodcourt to have our...hmm, I wonder that's lunch or dinner...anyway, that's not the point. In fact, the frustrating part is that my Yong Tau Fu, I ate halfway, went to buy drink, and I came back with the cleaner cleaning my bowl away, and half of the bowl just poof, gone like that...my food...the rest of them were supposed to go to hotel to celebrate Vic's birthday, it's a surprise meal specially planned to celebrate for her.

Hmm, this is where the problem starts, I just don't know why, after everyone's gone, I just feel so bored, lonely...arrgh...maybe because my nature can't stands boredom, well, I don't know...Funny thing is this, I went to City Hall to meet my mum, I went to the toilet at City Hall, planning to walk back to City Hall MRT station, I was like looking at the floor along the way, in my mind I was thinking wonder will I meet anyone of them here. Who knows, when I lift my head up, I saw Xiu Wen and Elaine!! Then I saw the rest of the people, Ben dragged me along to walk with them, well, thinking that I had nothing to do, I just followed them.

Arrgh, seems like I'm always got to be going through boredom and loneliness... why? why? Man, when is the time that I'm able to break free from this curse? when? when? God, can You tell me when? Can You help me? Can You lead me out from this? God, I need You...

Hope jamming on sunday will be able to bring me back. Anyway, I'm much better now in a sense, luckily emotionally stuffs I'm able to heal quite fast...

I'm starting to fall...

Till now, I'm just still wondering and asking, 'God, is this really what You want me to do?' The responsibilities of a cgc, I'm still learning to take it, and I'm still learning, but one thing, especially forecast of attendance, if I can't get the exact numbers and the accurate forecast, I'll just get something. But, sometimes, can't really blame them also, sometimes it's just me not asking them properly, when can I just start to ask them the correct questions, do the correct stuffs, give the correct answers? When? When? I'm just still seeking... Sometimes have thoughts of giving up, but, no way, I shall persevere, like what Jesus said, 'not my will, but Yours be done.'

Amen.

Back from chalet...

Actually I was planning on blogging this on the afternoon, but, the com has problems, and so I went to my room to lie down for awhile, but in the end, I fell asleep, guess I was too tired...

Hmm, I did made quite a lot of new friends in this camp...haha, Wei Siong, Desmond, Chee Wai, Cheryl, Roscelle, Hai Kiat, Kelvin, Samuel, Aaron, Joycelyn, Isabelle and etc... arrgh, can't really name all... haha. It's was fun though, the games really bonded everyone together, get to know each other better. During the night time, people who stayed, had a great time fellowshipping, had fun, games, and of course... FOOD!!!! Hahaha.. I think the game that was fun was the blind cat and the reverse of hide-and-seek...had so much fun. This guy, Alvan, a guitarist/bassist, man, he's good! I think have the same standard as Yong Jing!! Haha.

Around 5 plus, a group of us went to watch sunrise. Guess what?

We actually sat at the wrong side...which means...the sun was rising up at the back of where we are facing!! -_- Never mind, next time then... here are some pics that I took though, even though not very nice...haha

All of us went to Mac to eat when we left, and finally, I'm able to clear my craving of Big Breakfast. Wahaha, and Cheryl's able to clear her craving for Mcflurry. Lol.

Well, I shall stop here... tired...

Easter Weekend.

One thing I just want to comment about first is the CHC Drama Team.

They never fail us at all. Why?

Because there's always something that's memorable in each and every single drama. For example, last year's Easter drama, was a rap from the song called 'Tokyo Drift', this year, they took a song from a movie '881', and there's this song, "zi lang zi bua, gam qing buey sua...' and stuff, haha, it's just so funny...

At expo, the drama was even better, it's about an invention called 'i-Ming', which can let you view your memories, and can also travel back in time. I mean, this is so cool... Anyway, all I can say that those that I've invited you for Easter this year, you didn't even want to come, it's your loss...haha!!

Went for 4 services for the past 2 days, Xiu Wen asked me to take a rest at home, because I've attended 4, and it's like more than enough...but I think if there's a need, then I'll go for Sunday's service...

On Friday, served at JAMs Church, was great, recharged spiritually...and I knocked my head against an unknown-metal-quite-sharp object, luckily I did not bleed, but it's like swollen on my head, and now it's still pain... Went for service after serving, went for 2, didn't have the chance to eat dinner, even though I like only eat 2 biscuits in the afternoon before I rushed out, never mind, for God I press on!!! We then waited for Xiu Wen and Elaine at the coffeeshop, together with Jarrett, Wei Siong, May, and Wen Shun!! Reached home about 12... *yawn*

On Saturday, went for the expo service, saw Elaine, Shifu and Wei Liang at JE, met up with Kenny, Nicholas and Wei Huang (hope I spelt correctly) at JE, and supposed to meet Daniel, Shi Ting and another girl (I don't know how to spell her name) on the last cabin of the train, but in the end we don't even know where they are, so we can only meet them up at Tanah Merah. Upon reaching Expo, we then realised that we board the same train with Xiu Wen, only thing was she was at the front, and we were at the back. We ate before we went to queue up, the hall was packed very fast! After 1st service ended, some had to leave, the others stayed, and we encountered a problem, all 3 cg, Elaine, Xiu Wen and Serene cg all facing seats crisis, some people just came and put their stuffs over our seats...well, never mind...Kathryn and Yingli brought 2 friends along, Wei Siong attended the 530 service because he was too tired. The second service was like awesome! In the beginning, I didn't really expect much, but who knows, when Pastor Kong begin to lead us in a old song that they used to sing during Easter, I was touched by God, and I just cried. Felt so recharged and good to be renewed by God once again. Something not very good happened after service, but luckily it was solved quickly...Had lots of fun on the train, ah, brings back the memories of the journey back home when we were still attending expo services. Ate at the Jurong Entertainment Centre, when leaving, those leaving at Boon Lay went off 1st, left Kenny, the rest, Wei Siong, Nicholas, and me accompanied May to wait for her father to come and fetch her, not very good for a girl to wait alone down there, so we all accompanied her, and just like chit chat for awhile. After that all of us went off. I don't really know what happened to Daniel though... I feel tired... *yawns*

Anyway, I'm officially 1 year old in Christ on Friday!!! Yipeee!!!

Starting to get used to my work...

After the second day working at coffee bean, I'm starting to get A LITTLE used to the speed of everything and how to handle during peak hours and stuff. Hope to really get used to it soon...

Anyway, I forgot to add an ingredient to one of the drink... I hope the customer can't taste the difference...

Yesterday, Ben and I worked on the same day, so we went backed together. Shared alot along the way, we even sat on the stairs of the LRT station to talk...

He shared some of his testimonies, which really impacted me alot, and also stirred the fire in me again...anyway, I'm still learning how to be a cgc, but seems like I'm helpless in almost everything...

Ben said that I grow faster than him, in less than a year I've been promoted as a helper, but, even if I grow fast, I don't have enough experiences to really cover for what is needed, sometimes I just feel so helpless...

For example, basic things like encouraging members... I can't even bring myself to talk to them... I'm just wondering, when can I really throw away this thing call low self esteem? Arrgh...what am I suppposed to do? God, guide me through...

After talking with Ben, I feel the burden of reaching out to the lost again, the burden is much more stronger now. I'll try my best to really reach out for Easter...

One more thing, servanthood. All I have to do is to really apply this, and those things that I have learnt in Church, I should have no problems in handling my work and the people around there...

First day at work

Hmm, finally started working at coffee bean, a little havoc and rush to be true. Why?

Especially during luch hours and dinner hours, it's like so so so rush, everthing must be fast, the drinks, food, service and stuff... Furthermore, I just finished my training not long ago, and I still need sometime to really go memorise the steps and the ingredients of all the drinks...today started only in ice-blended station, but there's 16 DRINKS FOR ME TO REMEMBER!!! Never mind, slowly...these things need to practiced over and over again...I'll find a day to really go memorise the steps and the ingredients of all the ice blended drinks before I move to the hot drinks station...

I think I really need to get used to the speed of the work and stuffs, and also the fussy customers...today I already met one, he's not fussy, but a little...hmm, how should I put it... proud? arrogant? act big? I don't know, roughly the meanings that move around the three types that I have mentioned...

I also really got to start to plan my time properly, like for the upcoming bs classes, for my cgm, and when school starts I also have to take note of my schedule...arrgh... alot of things to take note of...until now I'm still a little regretting working, if not for money...sigh...

Hectic and Chaotic Week

Arrghh...this week was so hectic and chaotic...all because of me...sigh...

Hmm, let's see what happened this week...

Mon: Went to cut hair and buy black working shoes for work (coffee bean)...sigh...
Tues: Orientation of coffee bean, 6-10 pm...
Wed: Ice-blended training, 6-9 pm...

Thurs: Went to do medical check-up for my poly early in the morning, afternoon went to riverwalk to meet Pastor CK...

Fri: Supposedly to join cg for outing, but it clashes with the poly enrolment and orientation, at night will have to attend pm...

sigh...let me tell you why this week is so hectic...

On sunday, I actually mistook 14 of March is on thursday, which actually in fact it was on friday!!

Arrgh...I can't fellowship with the cg...sigh, arrgh, I have to settle my poly admin stuffs!!

Forget it, can always plan another outing...

Problems emerging...

Hmm, it's going to be close to a week not blogging if I don't blog now...

Well, since I'm blogging, I might as well blog about this matter...

Seems like my cg is facing one problem after another, I don't really get it, why are there so many problems...maybe God is trying to test us? To mould us into a stronger and even more united cg? I don't know, but seems like now is the most toughest period we've ever faced...CGCs, gotta pray more often!!!

I don't want to mention who's involved in these problems, but sometimes, if we're just going to be more understanding, be willing to know each other better, be willing to open up and talk, be able to talk things out in a more peaceful way, be able to take a step back, and we'll be able to see the broad and beautiful sky...but, such things are easier said than done...

Things are not going normally in my cg now, it may seems on the outside...this is the time to really stand up and pray, W143, let's stand up and pray fervently for this!!

Woohoo!! F.I.R.!!

Wow! The service was great man! Can you believe it? F.I.R. came to our church to perform, was nice seeing Fei-er(Faye) singing, and Ah Qing(Real) playing the electric guitar. So fun...

This morning, waited for so many people... Met up with Kelicia, then met up with Daniel(Jar's friend), then I think his 2 friends also, May and her friend and her sister, Siyuan...altogether 8 person...man...so many people...
Man, I must say I'm so so unlucky la...fell down at riviera, I ran, slipped on the puddle of water and fell, second is on the stairs...man, I was so embarrassed... well, never mind...

Man, I must say I'm so so unlucky la...fell down at riviera, I ran, slipped on the puddle of water and fell, second is on the stairs...man, I was so embarrassed... well, never mind...

Pastor Kong preached a very good message today also, he tried to squeeze a 3 hour sermon into a 20 mins sermon... the topic is about servanthood. I think I heard it before, either in cg or in a service last year...

Arrgh, at first thought today was able to go for the drum audition, but today was for vocals and dancers, never mind, I got more time to practice!! Haha...

Celebrated Siyuan's birthday also, even though it was like early by a few days, haha, bought this pink piglet cup for her, like what Xiu Wen said, I'm confident...haha, like I bought the chain for Wei Siong last year... I'm confident! :P

Anyway, I've got to settle my work stuffs quickly, my photocopied materials, and the typhoid injection, got to settle it quickly...

Kenny's birthday, opm, service...

Nothing to do at home, so might as well blog... Man, I'm jobless again, that time Filbert asked me regarding that job about selling laptops, I thought I had this chance to work, but now, sigh... because this job is only catered for already in poly students, I'm not in a poly yet, so I can't work...never mind, forget it.

Last friday was Kenny's birthday!!! The cg, even though it's like less than 10, including Shella and Shiting... We met at the fountain at takashimaya, then in the end, we went to eat KFC and Mac... After dinner, we rushed down to Bugis, to go to Mind's cafe to play, then met Gary there, Hui Tong went home, May came with a cake. Haha, everybody's face was like being touched by the cake, and only Shella, Wei Siong and me was 'freed'...haha, whew! At 10 plus, we then quickly walked to the MRT station to take train to go back to church, for the opm. Haha, 1st time participating in opm, and I learnt one thing, must bring at least 2 bottles of water!!! We left at about 145 or 150 am, close to 2 am in the morning, Ben, Ng, Wei Qiang and shared taxi home... When I reached home, I just quickly walked to the coffeeshop to buy a can of drink...wow...refreshing..haha

Yesterday's service was Rev. Dr. Ulf Ekman!! Wow, was an interesting sermon, and he's funny!! Haha, the whole lot of us then went to Jurong Point Kopitiam to fellowship, Kenny had to work, so he can't join us... all of us went back at around 6 plus... boring, nothing to do at home...

If anyone has any job which has flexible hours, can please tell me? Haha...

I'm tired...

Hmm, had my 1st cgc training last week, and it was great!! Learnt quite a number of stuffs, and get to know each other better! Can't wait for the second one!

Pastor Tan's message was also great last week! Was wondering whether to put it up, but in the end, I decided to put it up, because it was so great!!

Title: Built To Last

1. Loyalty

2. Commitment (Servanthood)

3. Respect-treating each other with respect (Talking about submission and humility)
Sedition is the insurrection against authority. (Which is act of rebellion)

4. Accountability (Connectedness, communication)

5. Family (Balanced life)

6. Love (Forgiveness, grace, mercy)

7. Faithfulness (Trustworthy)

8. Hardwork (Diligence, excellence)

9. Integrity (Truthfulness)

10. Generosity (Giving, thankful)

The above 10 points are actually related to the 10 commandments! Wow! It was so so so impacting! I did learn a new way to view the 10 commandments. We shall be do-ers! Not listeners!

After service went to JP with Kenny, Wei Siong, May, Kathryn and Siyuan. On the bus to Boon Lay interchange, don't understand why I had this sudden chest pain...arrgh... but thank God it got better after I left. haha.

Went to Ben's house warming after that, took some psp games from him, and played ps2 with him. Haha. Went back to look for Raymond, since we both had nothing to do, and we just chatted like before.

And again, we chatted the whole day again, went to eat fish ball guo tiao noodles at 3 plus am... haha... then around morning went to his house to play dota for awhile before I went back home, which was 12 in the afternoon... Yawn... I'm so tired... (serves me right, no one ask me to talk till so late...hahahaha)

Oh, you people know there's such things called Taiji Quan right, well, let me introduce this new set of excercise.

Wow...Introducing Taji Quan Class!

Noticed this when Ray and I walked back from the coffeeshop..haha

Temptations...

In a sense I seem like I'm falling onto this...but I got to keep telling myself 'NO', I shall not fall under the temptations of the devil... no no no... I shall bind the devil in Jesus name...

With Benjamin my fellow brother in Christ supporting me, with my CGL Xiu Wen guiding me...In Jesus name, I shall not fall! I shall not succumb to temptations!! Arrgh!!!

Valentine's day...a blissful day for all couples, a sorrow day for all singles...but some singles can be happy too! :) Arrgh, shall not talk about this too much...

Anyway... I very sick and tired, everytime I had to face such problems... Got to focus myself on something else...focus on something else...

(Felt much better after talking so much crap... :P)

CNY soon...

Heh heh, CNY coming soon, in exact, 2 more days. By then, I got ang pows!!!! But...somehow had a feeling this year's red packets are not going to be much...especially everything has been more expensive lately, so in turn red packet money may be a little lesser...year after getting lesser...

Well, never mind...I'm not that money faced really... haha :P

It's just because I've been real tight in my pocket lately...

Anyway, my house is starting to stock up some new year goods, which is food. Bak Kua, floss rolls...well, not much, but addictive.

Especially those floss rolls, my mum's friend made them, it's so small, you can put the whole thing into the mouth, so, imagine, you're watching a movie and you can like finish the whole container within...erm...if you eat it fast is half the movie? if you eat it slow is 3/4 the movie? or maybe even faster or slower...I don't know... haha...

Next thing, bak kua... My all time chinese new year favourite...although it's not very healthy...oops...shall not start my propaganda here...haha. Well, anyway, everytime I visit someone's house, my first aim, bak kua. It's just so so so addictive... If Shella were to read this, she would surely agree on this, with chop and stamp... haha lol!

Anyway, on sunday, Pastor Tan finished the whole 4F series, started by Pastor Kong! The four Fs are Focus, Forgiveness, Faith and Fortitude! Wow! Impactful series isn't it! :) Went to town after service, Joyce and Kenny went to look for job, Jarrett and his friend Daniel went along, and May and of course me!... haha... About evening time, May, Kenny and me went to look for Wei Siong at bugis, with Kenny going to sleep soon face...haha, and May very boring face, and Wei Siong's guilty look face...ahhhhh... lol, but had fun fellowshipping though... :)

Anyway, going to play game, I'll probably blog again maybe after the new year! :D

Collecting 'O' Level results

Ok, I know blogging about this topic should be a few days ago, but, it's not I don't want to, it's I can't...

Well, speaking about this, I really feel so happy about it (people please don't call me show off , I really feel happy...), can you imagine, of the 4 subjects I took, I actually improved in 3 of my subjects!!! I've got 16 points for L1R4!!! Wow! That was what I wanted last year, and I got it! Praise the Lord!!!

Well, I got quite a number of people to thank though.

1. Of course is my Heavenly Father, He's faithful always, and Matthew 6:33 does work!!! Thank God for the blessing in studies!!

2. Qi Hui, I got tuition for free!! Haha, joking joking, but seriously, I really gotta thank her for taking out time to come and teach Wei Siong and me, not forgetting Jason Chong!! Learnt science once again from Qi Hui, even though not much, but had fun. :)

3. My school teachers, especially Mr Shah and Mr Khoo. They've both been patient teachers, and I did improve my science through their guidance. :)

4. My beloved leaders, Xiu Wen and Elaine, for giving me all the moral support and praying for me. :) Not forgetting other members that have also given me moral support! :)

5. 5A and 5B, especially Wei Lun, Chie Kuan, Chen Peng, Chin Leong and rest of the gang, had alot of fun getting to know you guys even better, and thank you for your guidance in class when I don't understand, and thanks for waking me up whenI doze off!! :P

6. The fellow 'O' levellers that have studied together with me. Shamus, May, Wei Qiang, Cerenna, Kalyn, Alvin. Not forgetting Wei Siong also, even though he studied for his 'N' level, but we did help each other. :)

7. Last one, hmmm, was wondering whether to put this, but I think I might as well add this in also, thank you Benjamin Chan for bringing me back to church! Without you, I wouldn't have known so many people!! :)

All I know now is that I have to quickly make up my mind on which course to go, if not, I'll be schooless...

Last Sunday celebrated Elaine's birthday, hmm, the surprise wasn't that surprised, but it was a fun celebration though. I'm sure Elaine had fun. :)

I go look at my JAE book...

Forgiving

Well, the title is not actually whom I want to forgive, but it's actually the title of the message that was preached by Pastor Tan on Sunday service! An impactful one!

I learnt the true meanings of forgiveness.

1. Forgiveness is unconditional
2. Forgiveness does not minimize the seriousness of offence
3. Forgiveness isn't resuming a relationship without change
To resume a relationship:
a) genuine repentance
b) restitution (restoring)
c) rebuilding trust (takes time to do it)
4. Forgiveness isn't forgetting what happened
5. Forgiveness isn't my right when I wasn't the one being hurt

Seriously, this is really really an important message, because it kind of suits me. This sentence is interesting though.

" Life is 10% 'what happened' and 90% how we react to it." Quite true though. Another one.
"If we judge what we value by our circumstances, we will de-value what is important to give value to what is momentary."

After service, most of us went to eat 'ban mian'. Haha, had fun fellowshipping. After lunch, Xiu Wen, Gary, Wei Siong, Siyuan and me went to Jurong Point, Xiu Wen went to meet Shella though. In the end we ended up in arcade, Gary left to meet his friend I think, then halfway Xiu Wen and Shella left, leaving the three of us. Wei Siong and I played the basketball machine again..haha, it was fun. We then went to some shops and look at our own individual stuffs before Siyuan went down to buy waffle. We then had quite a long talk, about the cg and stuffs. Although a long talk, but at least we know our views for the cg, and we knew each other a bit better. Hope to have more similar fellowships like this.

Then when Wei Siong left, left Siyuan and me continue talking, about the same topics though, only difference was some stuffs were from her past. We then parted and I went home, I planned to meet Raymond and Nick. Haha, had quite a good chat with them also. Arrgh...tired, I go sleep.

Today was a talking day!! :P

Few days compressed into one..

Ok, I know I'm not online or anything, I'm using Ben's laptop to blog.. haha..

Just want to blog about what happened these few days.

Hmm, 23rd of December, the 1st service in JW building, didn't attended the service, but went to serve for God. This is the 1st time I'm serving, so if I go alone I'll feel a bit weird, but luckily there's someone I know to accompany me, Siyuan, haha, thanks for the companion. We were almost late, so the both of us took cab from Keat Hong, but who knows, we were not late! Really wanna thank God for that, when we reach there, a guy told us that most of them are not here yet... arrgh... Nevertheless, still made quite a number of friends during serving, was fun, although tired, refilling the drinks, refilling again and again, but was fun though, took some of the food to eat also.. :P

The both of us then went to coffee shop to look for the rest. In the end, Wei Siong, May, Siyuan and me went to town, because Wei Siong had to look for a gift for his ministry gift exchange I think...silver in colour is the theme, and at most 5 bucks. Haha. We were kind of good at walking though, from Somerset station we can walk all the way to Far East Shopping Centre...hahaha, and in the end I have to walk back all the way to Paragon to look for my mum, May meeting her friends, Siyuan had to reach home early, Wei Siong had nothing to do, so all 3 of them went off, left me...haha, I had to go back to accompany my mum to celebrate her friend's birthday anyway, so no choice la...

24th of December, Christmas eve, was also fun. Benjamin King and Chong Zhi went for the service, and King got saved! Basically other than this, nothing much happened, it's what happened later. Kenny, Wei Siong, Siyuan and me went to Jurong Point to look for a gift for Kenny's girlfriend. Initially he wanted to buy a musical box, but we couldn't find, so he decided to look for alternative gifts, I'm not sure what he wants to buy, but he's also very funny, went to look for a gift for his girlfriend during the last minute... When I reached home, I went to look for Raymond, and we were considered kind of good, haha. We talked all the way from 11 pm all the way to Christmas morning 8 am... This is the reason I didn't went for the service yesterday, initially I didn't mean to sleep, but who knows, I slept in the end...... Got to apologise, May's present for some of the people in the cg are still with me... yikes!

Christmas day, I went to look for my shoes before the Christmas offer ends...haha, bought a pair of new shoes! Look out for it! Haha. Thanks mum!

26th of December, Boxing Day, I'm at Ben's house now...blogging, going to taunt later...haha, ok, I shall stop here now, go play!!! :D

A touch from God...

This morning, about five plus, I can't get to sleep. This is where everything happens, God is indeed faithful, even though I did something that may hurt Him, He still never gives up on me, I'll tell you people later what I've actually did.

Now, well, this can't sleep thing, I think I've been thinking about too much stuffs when I'm trying to sleep, so that's why I can't sleep, rather distracted though. I think God really has it all planned. Next thing, you see, I suddenly got this urge to sing this song 'Heart Of Worship', so I just sat up, and I went to took the song sheet from one of the prayer meeting, and I started singing.

Next, I then start to sing 'Secret Place'. When I reached the chorus, this is where God start to touch me. Tears start to roll down my cheeks, arrgh, it's been so long...Oh Lord, feel me with Your love again.. The Holy Spirit then prompt me to stop, and so I started to speak in tongues.

Before I continue, I got to admit, I have not been praying for the past 3 weeks. When I spoke in tongues, I recalled what Pastor Kong said last Sunday, some of us christians, some of us are so good in putting up that 'Christian act', going to church and stuff, appearance may look spiritual, a faithful christian, but deep in the heart has long drawn away from God.. But, really thank God, I almost, almost... at least there's this feeling knowing that not praying to God for so long is not very good..

Ok, back to the incident. The moment I start to repent before the Lord, admitting my mistakes, indeed God is faithful all the times, no matter what wrongs we've done, as long as we come before His throne and repent before Him, Jesus is always willing to forgive and forget. God is so so so wonderful. The moment I repent before Him, I immediately cried non-stop. Ah, that feeling is what I have been desiring for, a touch that I've been wanting for a very long time... After crying for sometime, there's this unknown feeling, like something being lifted up from my heart, felt like this burden of not praying to God has been lifted up to heaven, and I feel this joy in my heart. After that I just continued to pray for christmas and ended, and went to sleep.

Morning, I woke up to bring my brother to the children's church christmas celebration. Even though that he went there for the whole service his face was kind of emotinless, but nevermind, I don't blame him, because it's his first time going to this place... Hope that when he grows up one day he'll accept Christ also!!

Anyway, today my new hair 曝光了!!! Arrgh... haha...lol

Jamming Experience

Ok, this is not the first time I went to a jamming studio to jam, so for some who think it is, it's not. I also know some of you out there must have heard me saying this like for a lot of times, and you're bored...okok, I know. I'm excited because, everytime I go jamming with my friends, I don't really have a major role down there, either playing keyboard for 1 or 2 songs, and sing or stone for the rest of the time.

This time, it's different, because this is a first time I'm in a major role of the song! A drummer! Man, my first time playing the whole song on the drum part! Felt so fun!

Without asking the vocalist, there's good and bad... Good is some parts we are setting up, and then some we had to get the notes or beats right, before we move on, so that took up quite some time, and if the vocalist was there, that person might probably felt bored... Bad is, you know, guys can only focus on one thing, at most 2 or 3 things at a time, so without a vocalist at that time really was hard because just purely the music cannot really guide us through the whole song...

The whole experience was fun, we played awaken my soul, rain down, but god, Shamus played the drums on shine like stars, great is our god, rain down, and the rest of the songs I kind of forgotten...

Well, anyway, Yong Jing had his fun before he flew off. The next time if the few of us have to jam again, will be next year...hmmm, looking forward...

Wasted, never took a picture that day...

Breakaway Youth Camp

Woohoo!! The youth camp was fun! SO FUN! Too bad I can't stay overnight... :(

Well, nevertheless, I spent a great day with the rest of my cg members! It's really a great day, at least one of my slacking days wasn't wasted..haha!

I was supposed to meet Xiu Wen, Gary and Hui Tong at JE at 2, but, I know, I was late...so sorry guys! :P

Had some chatting along the way though, by the time we reached there, we were just on time for the talk......

...to end... HAHAHahaha...erm...okok..

We had a short prayer, then all of us went back to the room to take our bibles before we report back to the room. A lot of 'wars' going on in the room when everyone came back, because there's a lot of bombing, and cheering, and some sort of mini competition led by Pastor CK. We then have ourselves embraced in God's presence in the room. Some of us manifested, some laughed, some cried, some, erm, nothing much, I was one..haha. Even so, it's great to feel God's presence! :)

After all praying, some had to leave, the rest then proceed down for dinner. Wow! Sumptuous dinner! It's a buffet, and thank God, all I can eat! Haha.. I felt like I'm back to a secondary school camp, kind of miss those kinds of camp...

We then went up to the hall after dinner, for the preaching by Pastor CK. After the word, we were supposed to hold this white candle(kind of like the Saviour King video), and then gather back to pray in groups. I prayed for Wei Siong, and he prayed for me. Woo, felt more closer as brothers! At the end, we took a group photo, look at this.

Actually, there should be another photo, with Pastor CK, but catching the last train is more important, so no choice.

Along the way back, Gary sort of emo, then Wei Qiang wants to sleep, he went to other side, Xiu Wen and I then sort of 'emo' and walked to the other cabin. Haha, when we went to Outram park, the annoncement announced that the last train to Boon Lay has left, so no train...AAHHHH, no choice, cab is the only way. Now I still owe Wei Qiang money...haha...

OK, I gotta go now. Yawn....

My great brother in Christ.

I don't really know what to blog, so I might just as well blog about this person.

This person, is none other then, Benjamin Chan. :)

I just really wanna thank God for this wonderful bro, we are like very very very very very the close now. Haha. Nothing we can't share about, we even start talking about each other's family, and we would always encourage each other. Although we sometimes may suddenly quarrel during soccer, but we would get it over very quickly.

Just really wanna thank God that He placed us into the same secondary school and the class during sec 2. God really has it all planned. We both actually know our own characters and each other characters through our own frequent sharing, and now we can really see the changes that God has done in our own respective lives, although there's still one thing we really need to improve.

Our temper problem.

I realise both of us actually live in a family who is constantly giving pressure unto our lives, which in turns really make us very hot-tempered, and also the friends we actually have in the school... Of course we will try our very best to really kick away this problem, and really become a person who has a lot of patience. I believe one day we will be able to become this kind of person. :)

I'm able to share things with him is not because he was the one that brought me back, but it's the kind of bond you actually had when in secondary school, when playing soccer, when going out, all kinds of stuffs that will do when in secondary school. It's because we knew each other too well, that's why we are able to talk openly to each other.

No matter what just really wanna thank God for this wonderful wonderful brother, a brother in Christ, a teammate in soccer, a soul-mate that I can share my worries about, really thank you for everything. :)

John 15:13--Greater love has no one than this, than to lay down one’s life for his friends.

New Jurong West Service!!!!!!

Yeah, today is first new English service in the Jurong West Church, wow, the atmosphere is comparable to expo! Guess what, the place is so packed that people had to sit on the stairs! Praise the Lord!!!

Today's message was awesome, it's about confidence, which is really quite true, and I'm very very impacted by today's message. Today was so so packed, very squeezy though, maybe not as squeezy as expo, haha.

After service, all of us went to the nearby coffeeshop to eat, some went home. After eating, some of us went off first, Shamus, Kathryn, Siyuan, Ben and his cousin, and me! Haha...okok, then Shamus suggest go play pool, in the end, only Shamus, me and Siyuan going. I really must say, she really very the blur ah, sigh... Never mind. To pool, hmm, nothing much to say actually, only thing is she really, sigh.... never mind, I think Shamus and I know can already. Hahaha.

I then went back, and I went to Ben's house, to play winnning and FIFA, well, seems like both our skills in respective games haved 'swopped'.. I lost him in FIFA, he lost me in winning..Haha, then I went back home. Haha, now hungry, I'll go look for something to eat.

Signing out!!!

Hurt and pain and stress

I can't stand it anymore... I feel so hurt, so hurt...

So hurt..so so hurt..

Why does this thing happen to me? I can't stand it anymore...

Is there a way out???

Why am I always facing dilemmas about such things?

Why? Why? Why?

I don't want to talk too much, I just feel so hurt, so pain, so stress...

What am I suppose to do? God, where are You??? Let me seek healing and rest in You......

Well, I think you all seldom see me so emo before, so just let me be emo for once...
And when can I go play basketball with Wei Siong and the rest? and when it jamming coming?

Arrgh...

I just continue to stay emo................................

Job looking day.

Heehee, I know I never blog for quite sometime since 6 of November, Chunli also ask me to blog, so ok, I'm here to share with you my experience of looking the job the second time(since I did the same thing last year :P).

Starting from the mourning, I was still asleep at 9:54am, until Wei Siong called me. Seriously speaking guys, I'm really sorry, because I REALLY REALLY totally forgotten...my mind is like filled up with other things, my youngest brother's primary 3 books, my the other brother's medical checkup, my mother's own checkup...arrgh, lots of things cramp in my mind, no wonder my own thigns I actually shove it aside...

Ok, back to the story, I woke up bringing my phone to the computer table, and I smsed Wei Siong why he called me, he replied that we are supposed to meet for the job interview, then my sudden thought is like, oh my God! I actually forgotten, I then immediately changed into my clothes, look for something to eat and just rush out. When I reached there, man...I was the target of all, since I was late... We went to interview for a job in NTUC Fairprice in BPP...

After the interview, since Ben had to go to school, the rest went home and met at CCK station, I went to Wei Siong's house, and Wei Qiang went back on his own. Ok, this is the 'exciting' part. I was taking a 'ride' on Wei Siong's bike, the 'tofu' car(those who have watched Initial-D should know what I'm talking about), there's a stand for people to stand at the back wheel, so I stood up and grab his shoulder.. Man, his swaying and turning made me nervous, because I don't know whether I would fall, it's not I don't trust him, it's the gravity keep pulling me back, so it's like I'm trying to balance myself on both the bike and myself.. Here comes this part, Wei Siong suddenly said 'I believe I can fly!' , and since I've said the gravity keeps pulling me back, and I tend to pull him back. So when the moment he let go his hands, I almost pulled him down together, and I just fall backwards. Luckily, I'm able to balance myself when I fall, and he's able to balance himself back on the bike, so thank God for His protection, no one was hurt! :P
In the end, I just had to jog the whole journey to his house, making myself sweaty...

When we went to town, we were supposed to look for more job opportunities, guess what we did?

We went to KFC and sat down and chit chat and relax...... Man, aren't we suppose to look for jobs? We then stood up and start to walk around.. Instead of looking a job, we went to look at swords instead, and eventually, arcade... Ben need to go to Chinatown to look for his mother, so the 3 of us we went to Plaza Singapura to look for jobs. Well, we did found some, some we had to call the office ourselves, we applied GV, adn my old company, Creative, hmm, I'm supposed to go online to submit my own resumè... We then took the MRT home.

Wei Qiang and I then return to BPP to look at some stuffs. To our surprise, we met Ben there again! We then chat for quite sometime, before I went to look for my mum. We went to Swensons to eat, and I saw my class Weisiong! Haha, what a coincidence day it was!! Wow..

Well, since yesterday we never took any pictures, so no pics. Haha!!

Finally...

Haha, finally, I'm blogging again... yaya, I knowsome people asked me to blog, so here I am...

Today is the end of my 'O' levels, and I'm what, now at Ben's house slacking and thon...lol

Actually I plan to blog on my birthday, but my com was somehow locked by my father, so I'm not able to blog about my birthday. Hmmm, my I didn't went to school, and I have cgm later in the evening, and like so many ppl wished me happy birthday. Haha, first time in my life... That day's cgm was fellowship one, so no sermon... Then halfway when I was eating the food prepared by some people, Xiu Wen suddenly took out the cake from the fridge... I was so shocked... I thought only got one slice, cos I see the rest all got one slice only...

Well, ok, move on to the next part, after singing, after blowing the candles, Xiu Wen took out the presents, a card and wishes from the cg, and a shirt from the cg, nice shirt though, adn drumsticks from both Ben and Ng. I was suppose to do my quiz that day, for my 'Getting Started'. While I was doing halfway, my mum called me and asked me what time will I be home, because my relative, cousins and my nephew is waiting for me...and my mum also told me that there was 2 cakes at home, 1 from my father and my mother... I was stunned... and I told her there's a cake with me... Man, I'm so blessed this year, 3 cakes... after the quiz and the celebration from the cg, I rushed back home... sian, I was actually thinking of celebrating with the cg...

Ok, back to the end of 'O' levels, actually now I also don't know what can do..haha..so just thought of thinking of slacking and thoning at Ben's house... Okok, here's a pic.




Haha, taken at his house... okok, sign off now, go play somemore!! :P :D